Dreams should be sweet and plesant something you would want to remember and some you want to share Dreams for a young child shouldn't have to be nightmares a young child shouldn't have to be afraid to fall asleep knowing if I did something bad would happen to me I realize that you can have nightmares even when your awake what I mean is that no matter if I was awake or not something bad always happen to me he didn't care what I was going through or what he was doing to me all that mattered to him was him and him only Why did I have to live in the same world as this evil person how come I couldn't go be with God at least I knew I would be safe at least I knew God wasn't going to let anything happen to me or anyone hurt me or bring harm to me My own parents couldn't give me this they failed to protect me from Mr Evil Villain so why wouldn't I want to stay here with them They had already let me down just as my teachers that over looked marks on my legs during gym class The doctors that over looked the marks on my young undevelped breast the marks on my thighs as well as my neck from the strong hold he had on me so I wouldn't scream from the pain As a child I had so many mixed thoughts going on in my head as to why no one wanted to help me why no one wanted to protect me So I gave up on life gave up on everyone that was in my life what the hell they had given up on me since I was 9yrs old when all my nightmares started to happen No one seem to care about little old me I cried so many times from he pain but I was often sent to bed until I felt better I was never going to feel better as long as Uncle Evil Villain was alive I would cry myself to sleep but forcing myself to stay awake so I could protect myself since no one knocking down these walls that hold so many secrets I had no strenght to take him down he was much to strong for me so most of the time I would just lay there silent crying while he did what he did because if I let out any type of noise while did his business with me he would grab my neck until the room would spin and I would be fast asleep When I woke he would be gone In some crazy way I think that was the best part of it alL "him having that strong hold so I would fall asleep I just wish that one day he would just hold a little stronger and a little longer then my life as I knew it would be over then I would be with my protector "God'