I could not believe where I was and why,everything I experience was not my true life but a fantasy life I'd pretended too have and live in because my wife had divorced me and died a year later  I couldn't cope . ' Where in a hospital,' I finally said looking around , I wasn't in regular clothes but wearing hospital clothing .The nurse was please with I'd guess something I said just now .

I looked at her and ask if I could return to my room .

' You look kinda of tired anyway.'

I nodded and smiled .But getting up too my feet I suddenly fainted .Then as I opened my eyes I suddenly felt uneasy again .Rick and my ex-wife were looking down at me as Rick help me to my feet .' Another fainting spell ? ' he asked me as I stood dumbfounded more then I was .I was beginning to feel like I  then never got off that rollercoaster when I was younger .I was still on it .

' I thought I was .'

to be continued