Monday, 13 October, 2008, Ivalo, Finland~

Dear Journal~

Terve!  Miita kuuluu?  Kiitos hyvaa!

Sari Annike here.  Thought I'd write in here before I leave for my doctor's appointment; have an appointment to see my pain management doctor, Dr. Aatisaari.  See him in less than two hours; see if he can give me something for my fibromyalgia; it's really been bothering me lately.

Thought it was because of handling the kids; even when not busy or moving, I hurt.  Terribly.  Feels like someone's been using my body as a punching bag; the pain has been incredibly severe, enough to take my breath away at times.

Nik has been patient with me; however, I haven't been the same with him.  If anything, I have been a b****.  I have not been very nice at him:  I have been snapping at him, yelling at Birtta and Erick when all they need is my loving support.  I hurt all the time, and I take it out on them, when I don't mean to.

At times I get so overwhelmed by the pain, all I can do is cry.  It doesn't help I'm pregnant; if anything, that's only heightened my emotions.  It seems I cry, get mad at the least little thing; it's terrible!!

If any of you could just keep me in your thoughts/prayers, I'd really appreciate it; this isn't like me.  I am usually not this grouchy; I'm really a very nice, easygoing person!  It's just this fibro and being pregnant that has me all messed up!!

Which is why I am going to see Dr. Aatasaari, to see if he can help me.  Oh, I pray he can; I don't think I can stand too much more of myself for too much longer!!

Well, I am going to go; have to get ready, then go.  While Nik and I are at Dr. Aatasaari's, my brother will watch over the children, if for a few hours; but it will give us both a much needed break.  I will write in here again soon; hopefully I'll get a good report.  Take care and may God bless you!

Until later, this is Sari saying Nakemiin!

~Love, your friend in Finland, Sari Annike. :(