I don't know if I can take any more drama in my life .... my life is pretty dramatic enough now as it is, and I don't know what to do!

Well-meaning friends keep telling me to pray about it.  Well, that's good, but I have stopped believing in God.  If God is who He says He is, then why isn't He doing anything to stop the problems that are plaguing this world: famine, natural disasters, wars, violence, etc?

Besides worrying about what's going on in our world, I have to worry about things going on in my own life.  My daddy leaving my mom and my brothers and sisters alone.  Had a "mid-life" crisis; falling in love with a woman that could be my oldest sister.  Twenty years younger than he is.  She already has a little kid by a previous man.  My kid brother doing drugs and not knowing what he is doing or where he is for days at a time.  Dealing with a little sister who has disabilities and knowing that she cannot take care of herself.

Now I find out that we might be losing our house.  Rent's gone up and mom can't afford it, especially since she took a pay cut at her job (and less hours).  

If that is to happen, then where would we end up??  I don't want to end up in a homeless shelter!!

I tell you, right now my life is one big joke waiting to explode in my face!  It's as if I'm skating on thin ice, and there's nothing, absolutely nothing, that I can do to stop things from happening the way they are!