' Mommy you o.k. ? young Samantha asked her mother as she saw her holding her stomach, Samantha had an idea of what was wrong with her mother being nine years old you quickly learn things .
' No,' her mother told her,' Your daddy and me just found out I'm going to have a baby ,' she tried to reassure her everything was alright but now even Samantha knew that wasn't true .
Samantha knew whatever her parents did already happened three times before ,herself,and two brothers she had Samantha helped her mother sit down as she called her father to help, her brothers were at a neighbors house getting it ready for Halloween .
' I think whatever you and daddy are doing dont I dont want another brother,' she said,' The ones I got are bad enough .'
' I already went to the doctor,we know what the baby is gonna be already and dont worry its a girl,' she told her daughter Samantha smiled but then had a terrible thought,two terrible thoughts came to her .
' That means whatever I have she'll have to wear right,like hand me downs,thats even worse then brothers,' Samantha said.But she knew her mother wasn't feeling right and stopped,as always her mother was so important to Samantha she never wanted to hurt her in any way shape or form, but still there had to be a way to stop her sister from coming .
Suddenly that night as Samantha slept she had a dream a dream where she stop her sister from being born, but in the days that followed Samantha felt so guilty about the dream she told her mother and asked God to forgive her .
In the months following Samantha's sister was born and being the big sister she knew it was her duty and job to help her mother take care of house chores when needed too be done and help take care of her baby sister ,but still thinking about hurting someone bothered Samantha and she then had prayed too God for guidence and help .
If you can't seek help professionally seek help spiritually in neither case if you are troubled or need help please get it dont be afraid to ask.
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