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Things are no better since I last wrote: if anything, things continue to grow worse, if that is possible, but somehow it is ....
More beatings, more people being shot, more fear heaped upon us as we toil from before the crack of dawn until late into the night, with only one or two ten minute breaks a day .... which means we work for well over 15 hours a day, including on weekends and on holidays ... each day is the same for us ... we have lost all track of time ...
I don't know what to do anymore ... I think it may very well be best if I give in to the Nazi thugs ... that's all they want anyway: to beat me down and wear me out. I think often of death or dying; it may be a welcome alternative; Heaven has got to be better than this; I've already lived through (and continue to live in) hell ...
II.
Found out from a friend here that my parents and my family have died at the hand of the Nazis. Somehow, I am not surprised. Nothing, in fact, hardly suprises me anymore .... I am too numb (not to mention, exhausted) to even care, but deep down, I have a burning ache in the centre of my chest as hatred burns anew for these monsters who have taken us hostage and taken everything from us.
I must think of a way to get out of here; I don't know how much longer I can put up with this indignity. I am only a boy of ten; what more could these Nazis possibly want from me or my kind?? I have done their bidding so far; it's time to take charge and say NO MORE! (Yet knowing if I do try to escape, I oculd very well be killed or even severely injured or punished).
I don't konw why the monsters came; I just wish they would go away. Far, far away!
III.
Well, the Nazis must have found out my plan; they beat the holy shit right out of me. I can barely move and am in such agonizing pain; it's a miracle they didn't kill me. It probably would have been better if they had; that way I could see my family again, in Heaven ....
I don't know if things will ever get any better; I am losing all hope. I wish I could just die at the hands of the Nazis; I can't take much more of this .... they killed my family; I might as well join them ....
~To be continued!~
