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The Most Revolutionary Act
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Category:
Young Adult/Teen
Publisher: Smashwords
ISBN-10: 1609118588
Type: Fiction
Pages: 323
Copyright: April 4, 2011
ISBN-13: 9781458009531
Price: $0.99 (eBook)
A 16 year old girl is arrested for participating in a blockade and occupation of the US Capitol. She winds up in juvenile hall, where she finds herself fighting for the right to live independently, in opposition to laws the require her to be released to a parent of guardian. A rallying cry for all young people fighting for equal rights protection against age discrimination.
Teen Fights for Equality in Power-Packed Novel
Winner of 2011 Pinnacle Book Achievement Award and 2012 Reader Views Reviewers Choice Award
As the story begins, sixteen-year-old Angela Jones is the primary caretaker of her invalid mother. Her twenty-three boyfriend opens her eyes to the urgent social and environmental issues facing her generation. On his urging, she leaves home to participate in the blockade and occupation of the US Capitol. Ange pays an enormous price for her beliefs, when she is arrested and winds up in a juvenile detention facility. While there, she is forced to fight for the right to live independently, in opposition to laws that require her to be released to a parent or guardian.
Critically acclaimed, The Battle for Tomorrow represents a new genre of topical realism that speaks to the emotional ghetto in which many American teenagers find themselves. It resonates with the growing despair of unemployed youth facing permanent joblessness and exclusion from the American economy and mainstream life. Yet it also offers a ray of hope, in the form of social and political empowerment. Set in late 2010, the novel foreshadows the massive social upheaval that will result in the nationwide Occupy Wall Street movement.
Excerpt
Chapter 1
Ange badly wanted to believe a miracle was still possible, that her period would come and she would just be more careful next time. Yet she never really doubted the blue line would be there--the flu-like fullness in her head and chemical feeling in her stomach were too familiar.
After undergoing her first abortion at thirteen, she would make all the arrangements herself. Most of her classmates at Garfield High School would be more worried about telling their parents than the actual consequences. Neither was an issue for Ange. What she couldn’t stand was handing herself over to adults she didn’t respect and who didn’t respect her. Adults always exacted a price from teenagers. To punish her for engaging in unprotected intercourse, they would now subject her to hours of inane questions and patronizing condescension.
They would insist on repeating the pregnancy test, of course. This time Ange knew she could demand a blood test, which was both faster and more reliable. They would also harangue her about being tested for HIV and swabbed for gonorrhea and Chlamydia. She had already decided not to tell them that her partner was a twenty-three-year-old nursing student and clean.
Relationships with adults were like a chess game. Telling them about Reuben would only lead to more questions. What’s more, they would think they had scored points by getting into her head at all. All adults in the so-called helping profession were like that. You could almost see them adding up points in their head. Eventually they reached some magic number and decided they knew you better than you knew yourself.
The worst part would be seeing a choice counselor, even though Ange had lots of practice with all the social workers from welfare and child protective services who tried to insinuate themselves into her life. Listening passively to their lectures and shrugging off their questions worked better than arguing with them. Ange would wait until they were just winding down, then ask, “Can I go now?” She could read their fury in their body language—none of them was immune. Only the blatantly incompetent ones actually vented their anger.
Handling Reuben would be more difficult. She would make him pay for the abortion because the pregnancy was his fault. The relationship was over She accepted that. What she hadn’t figured out was how to end it without making a scene, without giving him the satisfaction of making her lose it, yet again, with his mind games.
***
Too stressed out to sleep properly, Ange was up at 5:15 the next morning. By 6:15 she was showered and dressed in a black turtleneck and her best black cords. The clinic was a forty-five minute bus ride from the three bedroom house on 44th and Wallingford that her mother inherited when her grandmother died. Her plan was to arrive a little before nine and convince the receptionist she was too upset to wait for an appointment.
She used the mirror in the bathroom to apply a thin thread of eyeliner under both eyes and put her jewelry in. She decided to wear her full regalia, as Reuben called it—four double loops around the outer lobe of her left ear, three on the right with a pewter ear cuff, a tiny silver loop through her right eyebrow, and a tongue stud.
Squirting a few drops of hair gel onto her fingertips, she rubbed her hands together and ran them through her hair. Despite all the hardware, her new Goth look made her look and feel pretty for the very first time. She loved the way Katherine, her first Nordstrom supervisor, had cut her hair. After her first pregnancy, she cut off her shoulder-length, peroxide-blond hair and made herself over by dying it jet black. She was wearing it in a shag when she started at Nordstrom. Katherine kept saying that it was too long. Ange held out for six months, concerned that a shorter cut would make her look too masculine. As it turned out, her supervisor’s skillful tapering on top gave her hair extra fullness and body that made Ange look much more feminine by softening her square jaw line.
Finishing in the bathroom, Ange went down the hall to the kitchen, which was at the back of the house. She put two pieces of twelve-grain bread in the toaster while she boiled water in the electric kettle and emptied a scoop of French roast coffee into her mother’s single-cup drip cone. While she waited for the water to filter through, she buttered the toast with a thin sliver of margarine and put it on a saucer. She placed the saucer, along with her mom’s coffee, on the tray her mother’s caregiver Irene kept in the center of the kitchen table. Carrying the tray, she returned to the front of the house and knocked softly on the door to her mother’s bedroom.
Without waiting for an answer, she opened the door and set the tray on the antique wooden hospital tray stand just inside the door. After wheeling it to the head of the bed, she went to the windows to open the floor length, reddish-brown thermal drapes. Then she quietly approached the enormous electric bed where her mother was curled up on her left side.
Diane was paralyzed on her right side and virtually unable to speak after suffering a stroke a week past Ange’s thirteenth birthday. Ange stayed with her best friend Aleisha while her mom spent three months in a Mountlake Terrace rehabilitation center. After coming home, Diane went through five different caregivers in twelve weeks. Every time an agency nurse failed to show up on time, or quit without giving notice, it became Ange’s responsibility to feed, toilet, transfer, and bathe her mother, as well as to track down Diane’s elusive case manager to get a new caregiver assigned.
The adults in her life blamed Ange’s first pregnancy on the massive stress of this responsibility. Ange herself disputed this. What had happened when she was thirteen was date rape, pure and simple. She was too naďve and inexperienced to know it at the time, which meant the boy was never prosecuted. Diane’s sister Beverley still lived in Seattle when it happened. After scheduling and paying for Ange’s first abortion, Beverley moved in with her sister and niece.
That had lasted exactly three months. Ange, who knew it was down to her that Bev eventually left, would give anything to live that summer over again. By the time Ange recognized that her aunt was the only adult other than her grandmother to genuinely care for her, Bev had moved halfway around the world. And it was too late.
She saw now that Bev had been teasing when she accused Ange of turning into “Diane Junior.” At the time the comment infuriated her. After her aunt moved in, Ange couldn’t help but notice how shallow and superficial Diane was compared to Bev and her grandmother. They were both self-sufficient, free-thinking feminists, whereas her mother was a perfect caricature of the idealized American beauty promoted by TV advertisers.
Ange also rebelled against the house rules her aunt tried to set for her. Diane, whose life was centered exclusively around her own needs, had always allowed Ange to do as she pleased. After two months of dealing with Ange’s angry tirades and verbal abuse, Bev quit her job at K-Mart and went to Africa as a Peace Corps volunteer.
***
Ange grasped her mother firmly by the shoulder and felt a slight shudder. Even without makeup, which Irene applied first thing every morning, Diane was much closer to Ange’s ideal of beauty than she herself was. Her mother had bemoaned Ange’s thick nose, square jaw line, and small, too-close-together eyes as far back as Ange could remember. In fact, prior to becoming a teenager, Ange blamed her ugliness for Diane’s inability to love her.
Although she was pushing forty-five, Diane still had a heart-shaped, baby-doll face and fine, perfectly proportioned features. She always looked prettiest asleep because the scowl lines disappeared when her face relaxed. Ange had never seen Diane’s natural hair color; she assumed it must be totally gray now. Her grandmother’s had been nearly white by age forty. Diane had dyed her hair auburn before her stroke. For the past six months—since Irene had been using a DSHS van to take her to the beauty college—she was a copper blond.
Diane hated being woken early, but the 911 autodial on her speakerphone made it too risky to let her wake up in an empty house. The last time Ange left before the caregiver arrived, her mom had called the police and Ange nearly ended up in a foster home.
“I have to leave early, Mom,” Ange said softly in her ear. “I can’t wait for Irene to get here. We have debate practice.” It was a lie, but a minor white one because it was inconsequential. Ange had enough problems already without dealing with a repeat of the hysterical crying jags Diane subjected her to when she found out about the first pregnancy.
There was a large, black leather La-Z-Boy to the right of the bed, where Diane spent most of her day. To the right of the armchair was a commode with a stainless steel frame and a seat cover that was originally yellow, but which had degraded over time to dingy white with pink streaks. One the left side of the bed was a large oak bedside table fitted with three shelves for books, magazines, DVDs, and videotapes. On top of the table was a small, cut glass Tiffany lamp, along with a speakerphone and three remotes for the bed, TV, and DVD. The video equipment was on a lightweight, wheeled stand that normally stood at the foot of the bed. Reuben had rigged it up with rope pulleys that enabled Diane to pull it to the head of the bed and insert DVDs herself.
Her mother lifted her head, which waggled ever so slightly. The movement, which would have been imperceptible to a stranger, meant “no.” Ange cocked her head toward the armchair. “Do you want me to help you transfer?” Diane bobbled her head again. She wanted Ange to transfer her.
Carefully undoing the Velcro strips that attached Diane’s catheter bag to the bedrail, Ange pulled the covers back. Bending over to enable her mother to reach her good left arm around her neck, Ange wrapped her own arms around the small of Diane’s back as she gently shifted her to the La-Z-Boy. Her mother had lost nearly thirty pounds with the stroke, and Ange found the intimacy more difficult than the physical effort of lifting her. Prior to the stroke, Diane had been prone to melodramatic displays of physical affection to demonstrate a supposed mother-daughter bond which, in Ange’s mind, had never existed.
Once Ange positioned her in the chair, she handed Diane both remotes and the two ropes Reuben had attached to the TV stand. Then she wheeled the tray stand into position over the La-Z-Boy, kissed her mother on the forehead, and left.
***
She caught the 44 bus to Aurora and hurried up a long flight of concrete stairs to the 45th Street overpass, where she waited for the number six to Aurora Village. With no trees or homes to block the wind off Puget Sound, it was at least ten degrees colder on top of the overpass than at street level. She huddled out of the wind behind the bus shelter, mentally kicking herself for being in this predicament. A deeply superstitious part of herself, which still believed that her first pregnancy had been punishment for wild behavior, told her she could have prevented this one by staying home and doing her homework every night.
Ironically, Bev had far more influence over Ange while in Africa than in Seattle. Determined to prove she was nothing like Diane, after her aunt left Ange totally swore off boys for two and a half years—except for two temporary relapses.
Ever since the tell-tale symptoms started, Ange had been torturing herself with “if only’s.” If only she had used a diaphragm in the first place. If only she hadn’t allowed Reuben to sexualize the relationship. If only she could give up on love and men, as they only seemed to fuck her life up.
For all practical purposes, her two and a half years of self-imposed celibacy ended when she met Reuben at Leavenworth Summer. Her world history teacher had nominated her for the special social studies camp the summer before her sophomore year. Reuben, a junior at University of Washington, was one of the counselors. On learning Ange had been accepted, an older girl in her French class had referred to Leavenworth Summer disparagingly as “commie camp.” This puzzled Ange: following the collapse of the Soviet Union and the conversion of China to capitalism, she couldn’t imagine there were more than a handful of communists on earth, much less in Washington State.
To her surprise, it was the high point of her adolescence. Ange, who had never been east of Carnation, was enchanted by the high Cascades site chosen for the camp, which reminded her of the alpine shots in Heidi and The Sound of Music. She had expected to be surrounded by a bunch of geeks and nerds, but for the most part the other campers looked exactly like the preps and jocks she saw every day at Garfield, only these kids weren’t into bragging about the music and videos they downloaded to their smartphones, Blackberries, and iPads. This was fine with Ange, who didn’t own an iPod or videophone, much less all the second generation gear her well-to-do classmates brought to school. The “freaks” at commie camp got off staying up all night talking about people, places, and world events Ange had never even heard of.
In Leavenworth all camp activities were optional, although there was a strong expectation campers would attend a current events film every afternoon. The movies were geared to a level even someone like Ange, who had read perhaps three newspapers in her life, could follow. The first day they showed a cartoon about a mouse who snuck aboard one of Columbus’ ships, who explained how the world got divided into rich and poor people. The second movie was about country singer and working class hero Johnny Cash, and the third about an MIT linguist with an amazingly comforting and hypnotic voice; most of the other campers had already heard of Noam Chomsky, who kept emphasizing the point that the government was deliberately misleading people—both about what they were doing and what was really happening in the world.
Although Ange genuinely enjoyed the films, she dreaded the discussions afterwards. She felt such a total retard compared to the other campers that she didn’t dare open her mouth. Reuben, who was one of the counselors, seemed to recognize how out of place she felt. On day four he rescued her from a discussion about The Yes Men, a funny movie about a group of men pretending to be from the WTO. Ange had no idea what this was either, and it wasn’t really clear from the film. According to her fellow campers it was trying to destroy democracy.
Ange eagerly accepted Reuben’s invitation to drive into Leavenworth’s town center for a latte, only to be totally blown away as they got in the car. “I just want you to know I’m not hitting on you,” he announced matter-of-factly. “This isn’t about that.” This was the last thing she expected to hear from a member of the opposite sex.
She was even more unnerved by what he said next. She had never before met anyone who could read her inner thoughts and feelings. “I can’t quite put my finger on it, Ange,” he observed, his voice tentative and thoughtful. “But I get the sense your parents never talk about politics at home, that all this is quite new for you.”
He went on to tell her about a film they were showing that afternoon called Who’s Counting by a New Zealand woman named Marilyn Waring. “We’re having a special type of discussion group afterwards called a ‘fishbowl.’ The women who don’t talk very much will sit in the center and talk about feminism, while the men and talkative women sit in a circle around them and listen. I’m sure you know what feminism is, don’t you?”
Ange nodded. “My grandmother was a strong feminist, but my mother always felt she was too extreme. She hated the way she was always at meetings instead of taking care of her kids.”
***
Ange thoroughly enjoyed the Marilyn Waring film, which focused on the vast amount of unpaid work women performed in different societies that wasn’t counted as economically productive. She made the immediate connection with the hundreds of hours she had spent looking after Diane. She couldn’t imagine any of her male classmates making their mothers’ breakfast or giving them bed baths or transferring them to the commode.
As he had promised, Reuben put Ange and four other quiet girls in the center of the fishbowl. It was also their first time at Leavenworth Summer—and, as in Ange’s case, the first time anyone had asked their opinion about anything. It fact, this was the first thing they agreed on—they weren’t sure how they felt about feminism because no one ever asked how they felt about things. At home, it was assumed they felt the same as their parents did. And at school, they felt under constant pressure to conform to their friends’ views.
Ange and the other girls inside the fishbowl never really talked about feminism, which was the topic Reuben asked them to discuss. Instead, they talked mostly about housework and chores, focusing on the drudgery and boredom of doing dishes without a dishwasher and cleaning toilets and shower stalls.
“I’m never getting married or having children,” Ange volunteered. “I was leaning that way before, but now I’m absolutely sure. I know a scam when I see one. In modern society, women are no longer forced to take on that kind of unpaid work if they don’t want to.”
***
Reuben continued to call and text Ange after she returned to Seattle. He took her to other political films and lectures about climate change and Peak Oil, as well as to meetings of a group called Socialist Action, which Ange previously had no idea existed. In September of her sophomore year he invited Ange to her first protest march. Then in March, when she turned sixteen, they became lovers,
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