LOST LITTEL GIRL IS THE STORY OF KISSY KELLY, AND HER STRUGGLE TO FIND HAPPINESS & PEACE WITHIN HER LIFE AND HER SELF. AFTER LOOSING HER MOTHER AT AN EARLY AGE, SHE FACES COUNTLESS OBSTACLES IN HER YOUNG LIFE INCLUDING..... VIOLATION OF HER INNOCENCE, DEPRESSION, AND INCONSISTENCY IN HER FAMILY. WHEN IT SEEMS THAT SHE IS DOWN & OUT, AND AT THE END OF HER ROPE.....SHE IS GIVEN A SECOND CHANCE AT HAPPINESS IN A NEW PLACE. ONLY TO HAVE THE SAME DRAMA AND TERMOIL FOLLOW HER AND CONTINUE TO PERTRUDE UPON HER LIFE. EVENTUALLY SHE FINDS HAPPINESS.... WITHIN A VERY UNLIKELY SOURCE. BUT THE QUESTION IS........."WILL SHE BE ABLE TO MAINTAIN IT??"
EXCERPT ONE
I'VE NEVER BEEN SO SCARED IN ALL MY LIFE. I KEPT TRYING TO SCREAM, BUT WITH
THE FORCE HE HAD ON MY NECK, NO WORDS WOULD ESCAPE MY MOUTH. I COULDN'T
SEE BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT TO. EVERYTHING WAS BLACK. I WANTED SO BAD NOT TO
HEAR, BUT I COULD. I HEARD HIM BREATHING IN MY EAR MOMENTARILY. THEN I FELT
THE WORSE PAIN I HAD EVER FELT IN MY LIFE. IT WAS THE PAIN OF MY INNOCENSE
LEAVING ME FOR GOOD.......
"I FELT SO DIRTY. I FELT ASHAMED, SCARED, EMBARRASSED AND SO MUCH OTHER
SHIT. I PACED THE ROOM OVER AND OVER, NOT KNOWING WHAT TO DO. I FELT LIKE
THE WALLS WERE CLOSING IN ON ME. I COULDN'T BREATH. I FELT DIZZY. I KNEW
WHAT WAS HAPPENING. I WAS HAVING A PANIC ATTACK. I STARTED HAVING THEM
WHEN MY MOTHER DIED. IT HAD BEEN ABOUT A YEAR SINCE MY LAST ONE. I KNEW
IF I DIDN'T GET OUT OF THERE I WAS GONNA DIE. THEN I HEARD THE SHOWER WATER
START AND THE BATHROOM DOOR CLOSE. I KNEW IT WAS MY ONLY CHANCE TO GET
OUT OF THERE. I LEFT ALL MY CLOTHES AND JUST RAN ......
EXCERPT TWO
SO WE LIVED A HAPPY LIFE UP UNTIL MAY 1995. THEN THE PAIN AND DRAMA THAT
USUALLY CAME WITH MY LIFE WAS BACK TO HAUNT ME. NAI AND ENIKA GOT ARRESTED
AT WORK. THEY HAD BEEN DANCING AT A CLUB ON NEW YORK AVENUE FOR ALMOST 2
YEARS. NOW I THOUGHT ALL THEY WERE DOING WAS DANCING. APPARENTLY, THAT
WASN'T THE CASE. THEY GOT BUSTED FOR PROSTITUTION. THEY WERE TRYING TO GET
DOWN WITH AN UNDERCOVER OFFICER. SO THEY WERE HAULED OFF TO JAIL ALONG
WITH A FEW OTHER "DANCERS" AND A FEW OF THE CLUBS PATRONS. EVERYBODY ELSE
WAS RELEASED THE NEXT MORNING. ALL THEY HAD TO DO WAS PAY A 500 DOLLAR FINE.
SO ME AND LATRELL SAT DOWN AT THE COURTHOUSE FOR 4 HOURS WAITING. WHEN NAI
CALLED ME THE NIGHT BEFORE, I GOT 1,000 DOLLARS OUT HER SAFE IN HER ROOM
(SHE DIDN'T TRUST BANKS) AND ME AND LATRELL WENT TO THE COURTHOUSE. NOW ME
AND NAI NEVER KEPT SECRETES FROM EACH OTHER. EXCEPT FOR MY RAPE. WELL NOW
WAS PAYBACK TIME. MY SISTER WAS HOLDING MORE THAN ONE SECRETE FROM ME.
EXCERPT THREE
IT HAD BEEN ALMOST 6 YEARS SINCE I SEEN MY FAMILY. AND ALMOST A YEAR SINCE I TALKED TO THEM. I WAS ABOUT TO GET MARRIED, AND I WANTED THEM TO BE THERE. THEY HAD RAISED ME FROM THE TIME MY MOTHER DIED UNTIL NETTA GOT SICK. I FELT I OWED THEM MORE THAN A INVITATION SENT BY MAIL. SO I WAS GOING FACE TO FACE TO INVITE THEM ALL ON AND ALL EXPENSE PAID TRIP TO JAMAICA FOR A WEEK TO TAKE PART IN MY WEDDING........
MY SPECIAL DAY WENT OVER SO WELL THAT IT SCARED ME. I WAS SO USED TO HAVING MY HAPPINESS STRIPPED AWAY FROM ME. BUT NOT ON THIS DAY. THERE WAS NOTHING BUT LAUGHTER AND HAPPINESS ALL DAY LONG. AND WHEN I DID CRY, THEY WERE TEARS OF JOY. MY WEDDING DAY WAS HONESTLY THE HAPPIEST DAY OF MY LIFE.
EXCERPT FOUR
ENIKA CAME OVER EARLY THE NEXT MORNING TO TRY AND RIGHT HER WRONG. FO 30 MINUTES, I LISTENED TO HER SAY A WHOLE BUNCH OF NOTHING. SHE WASN’T IN HER RIGHT STATE OF MIND, SHE WAS SCARED, AND A WHOLE BUNCH OF OTHER MESS. THEN I POLITELY TOLD HER THAT I WASN’T MAD WITH HER. I DIDN’T EVEN BLAME HER. BUT I JUST DIDN’T FUCK WITH HER. PLAIN AND SIMPLE. I COULD TELL SHE WAS HURT, BUT I DIDN’T GIVE A FUCK. MY SISTER WOULD PROBABLY DIE SITTING IN THAT JAIL CELL, AND THERE WAS NOTHING MORE HURTFUL THAN KNOWING THAT.......
WHEN I WOKE UP, I WAS ALONE. IT WAS HOT AS HELL AND DARK. I WAS WORKING WITH ONLY ONE EYE. MY OTHER EYE WAS THROBBING, AND I COULD TASTE BLOOD IN MY MOUTH. I DIDN’T HAVE ON MY SHIRT OR MY PANTS. I JUST HAD ON A BLOODY WIFEBEATER, AND MY PANTIES. I DIDN’T KNOW WHAT THE FUCK WAS GOING ON. MY FATE WAS IN ANOTHER PERSON’S HANDS. BUT FOR SOME ODD REASON.... I WASN’T SCARED.......
YEAH, I KNOW IT SOUNDS REAL HYPOCRITICAL. WHEN WE WERE BUYING BIG CARS, TAKING LAVISH VACATIONS, AND SHOPPING LIKE CRAZY PEOPLE..... IT WAS ALL GOOD. BUT WE TALKING ABOUT ADULTERY FOR STARTERS. THEN KIDNAPING. AND I KNEW IT WAS ONLY GONNA GET WORSE FROM HERE. BETWEEN ME AND HIM, WE HAD 6 KIDS. WHAT ABOUT THEM. I WANTED TO BE AROUND TO SEE MY KIDS GROW UP AND SUCCEED IN LIFE . AND FUCKING WITH THIS WAS NOT GONNA GET IT......
SOMEBODY IN THEM STREETS WANTED HIS SPOT. INSTEAD OF GIVING IT TO THEM, PUTTING ME AND THE KIDS FIRST AND MOVING ON..... HE WANTED TO STAY AND FIGHT TO THE END. AND I WASN’T WILLING TO STICK AROUND FOR IT. I HAD COME TOO FAR IN LIFE TO LOOSE IT ALL BECAUSE THESE NIGGAS WANTED TO SEE EXACTLY WHO HAD THE BIGGER BALLS.
EXCERPT FIVE
DAVID AND CHRISTIAN WENT INTO THE BEDROOM AND LEFT ME AND MECCA OUT IN THE LIVINGROOM ALONE. AND THEN MECCA BROKE OUT THE “NOSE CANDY”. IT TOOK A BIT OF TIME TO CONVINCE ME TO GET DOWN, BUT I FINALLY DID...... AND THE FEELING IT GAVE ME......... OH MY GOD!!! IT WAS BETTER THAN THE WEED ROCKEY HAVE GAVE ME. IT WAS BETTER THAN SEX. BETTER THAN ANYTHING I HAD EVER FELT BEFORE.
EXCEPT MY HUSBAND.
AS A MATTER OF FACT, THAT’S WHAT IT FELT LIKE. LIKE THE FEELING I GOT EACH TIME HE KISSED ME, OR TOUCHED ME, OR MADE ME SMILE.
I HAD FOUND A NEW LOVE. AND JUST LIKE MY FIRST LOVE , IT WAS DANGEROUS..... AND THAT EXCITED ME. IT MADE ME WHAT IT MORE AND MORE. BUT WHAT I DIDN’T REALIZE WAS ....... JUST LIKE MY FIRST LOVE, THIS NEW LOVE WOULD TAKE ME AS HIGH AS HEAVEN...... AND THEN WITHOUT WARNING........ DROP ME DOWN TO THE PITS OF HELL.
EXCCERPT SIX
WHEN MY FAMILY LEFT, WE HAD MADE AN AGREEMENT....... I WOULD GO STRAIGHT INTO A TREATMENT PROGRAM. AT FIRST I WAS ALL FOR IT. BUT ABOUT 2AM, MY “JONES” STARTED TO KICK IN. I KNEW THEN THAT I WOULDN’T BE ABLE TO DO THIS NO MATTER HOW MUCH HELP AND SUPPORT I GOT.
I WAS A DRUG ADDICT. THIS IS WHO I WAS AND THERE WAS NOTHING I OR ANYBODY ELSE COULD DO ABOUT IT. I HAD HURT THEM ALL ENOUGH. I PUT THEM THRU HELL. I HAD NEGLECTED MY BABIES, ALMOST KILLED MY SON, DISRESPECTED MYSELF AND MY FAMILY. I KNEW WHAT I HAD TO DO. THIS WAS THE ONLY WAY I COULD MAKE THINGS RIGHT
Rovella is a beautiful woman with a cold heart whom blames herself for an unfortunate old family secret that is literally ruining her life. This secret impedes a gorgeous woman from having happiness in her childhood, and throughout her life. Dark sec
