I have done many things in my life, but that which I am most proud of is that I'm mother of 3 children with Tuberous Sclerosis Complex, as well as mother of two without.  4 children from my most recent marriage, and one from my first marriage. I am just waking up to the fact that all of the experiences and people and situations in my life have been part of my curriculum in life.  All a by product of God disguised as genetics, early childhood trauma and just childhood experience in general, and the question of is there free will wrapped up in this current incarnation.   I want to inspire and share my story as what I've had to overcome in this lifetime is nothing short of exceptional but also it is nothing short of selfish and imperfect.  Now that I know my path, that of caring for my children and loving them, I feel an inner drive to let others know that the soul is eternal and we are so much the victim of our misunderstanding about who we really are as human beings.  We walk the line between dark and light on a daily basis and it is our choices in the NOW that determine our path.  The path that has already been laid out when we were conceived at the beginning of time So I share my daily experiences and the metaphoric interplay of dark and light in the eternal NOW.   I also wash dishes, make dinner, go for long runs, go to AA meetings, talk to friends, spend time with my kids, my boyfriend, my mother, my friends in this particular moment in this incarnation.  I'm 49 and realizing I'm getting older. Love is so available and real at this point in my life.  I'm trying to understand and harness to spread to others in a meaningful, humble, way.

I just posted a new blog to the blogs at telegram.com on my marathon aftermath experience.