Deep Down Within

I reach down within myself,
I must feel the agony,
It must have a source beyond understanding.
Some solidarity to it,
it is the only way to make since of it all.
Love and hate mingle in my heart,
the confusion overwhelming me.
Can I find it? Is it there?
The strength to move forward,
to pull myself from this avenue
of pain and heartache?

My heart is like a thundering sky,
it beats...it beats..
Is the fear going to
cloud my mind?
Shall I let it, I know that it would.
It beats..I feel the pulsing
behind my eyes,
the feelings are so intense,
alive, real.
How can anything like this be? Surely a person could perish underneath
the intensity of this heartache.
It must be released..
It must come forward and
up and out.
It mustn't stay below to
fester and grow.

It feels like a hundred
knives stuck in
my heart and my mind
says to scream...
Scream for help..
Scream for your life,
pull it from deep down within and let it ripple the air waves.
I know that I must, I must..
For I have to go on.