Distrust
To be not trusted
is to see all light as darkness
all darkness as silence
aliveness sleeping
forever never
To be not trusted
hurls one beneath the covers of death
where today's future can be but dreamed
never realized as yesterday's seedlings for tomorrow
that simple desire to be of petals
not a tumbling weed among stunted blossoms
To be not trusted
is to be banished adrift without compass or stars
rendering breath but in a vacuum
gentle touches as whispered memory
fragrance becoming the ever-distant flower
desperate to bloom
but imprisoned by wanton mirage
"When you first came here, I didn't like you. But now I like you a lot, brother."
But worse, is having a trusted colleague become paranoid and loose trust in you for the wrong reason. It happened to me when the guy who hired me, began to distrust me when he learned of things that were not true and assumed they were. I also didn't like some of his behavior, like his willingness to take credit for what others and I did for him under his command. And perhaps, the worst of all, to pad his salary with money from employees who could ill afford to lose it. His downfall in the end.
Ron