The IT of Love
As Infant,
IT was simple.
Touch.
Smell.
Taste.
See and hear.
Soft was soft.
Smiles were smiles.
Kisses were kisses.
As Child,
IT was…different.
Am I cared for?
Am I really liked?
Am I loved…really?
As Adolescent,
IT was…Hell.
If I do this well, will I be--?
Why did they invent mirrors, anyway?
Why don’t I love even myself?
Will I ever find IT?
As adult,
IT was…a disaster.
I knew what IT was,
Why didn’t they?
I knew what IT needed,
Why couldn’t I find more?
I learned IT was all misread,
Why didn’t others?
As a Being,
I’m listening to petals open.
I’m seeing noise made quiet.
I’m smelling transcendent breezes.
I’m tasting fragrances awakened.
I’m touching the infant within.
What if IT just is,
Sans definition
For its own sake?
Consider
The who and what of love
In a world where marriage convention
affords little emotional purchase,
and commitment outside the institution weighs heavy
on the traditional.
Panicked love brokers of halo driven missteps
mount their marbled pedestals of self-deceit
and preach their continuum for tried and proven failure
to those of vacuous preference.
Who might they be
these carnivorous angels of imagination,
these habitual slight-of-hand love merchants
in three-piece suits
and vestments of supernatural protection,
whose power of persuasion beckons you buy
into the promised sacred memories of tomorrow?
What mutation of species thrives on the suffocation of will,
who bless the innocent to sacred prisons of the flesh,
where long-term pain of born-again ignorance
is sanctified in the form of perpetual lineage?
And who are those who reject such iconoclastic relics of yesterday
and seek rather the oft-missed nature of love,
that which proffers life’s partners as born of fragrances
from bouquets of unpollinated flowers,
visions of untrammeled dreams
and the concertos of atonal memory
tethered to a cloudless ether of joy and innocence?
We ponder and ask…
Is there a romance of life,
a ripple of peace and rest
as storms fade behind us
and nature's wash cleanses the residual wounds of the past?
Does the blue of calm meet the red of passion with cautious beckoning?
Are we but delusional in our praise of the heart's ceaseless trumpeting of yesterday's echoes?
And what of this creature comfort that oft times is mistaken for love?
Can it be that mind over matter is reality's checkmate for careless games of infatuation,
where the romance of love proves to be only dreams mistaken for consciousness
bringing aloneness begging of forgiveness?
For truth be told,
romance is life,
a lyrical perspective
allowing the music of winged intonations and soulful protocols
to harmonize with the fragrance of smiles that permeates the symphony of living,
where the clouds release sunlight,
storms arrest our complacency,
and cascades of past emotions take their rightful place
in the now of yesterday,
the present of today,
and the magic of tomorrow.
What is romance
if not all of nature,
all of the imagination,
and forever the rapture of love
in all its wanting,
in all its impatience,
in all its unknowns,
and forever in all its undiscovered self-perpetuating conundrums.
But, oh how sweet the enigma of its reality.
For me, there is a kaleidocope within these words that's very rare to achieve.
Bookmarked - I plan to read again in a few days...
Rx
But in your case, you focus in that first poem the IT that encapsulates all of us for most of our lives, Love. And you portray love as a shape shifter that we can't quite grasp, although we try throughout our lives. After that first lifelong quest for IT, you launch into a philosophical view of love that is all-encompassing and ends with that eloquent last line describing love as an enigma of sweetness.
Brilliant!
Ron