Fear’s Black Hole
Ghosts of experience,
Pain once felt,
Forever present,
Lurks in one's mind cave,
Refracting light,
Mirrored on all sides.
Even while concealed beneath the ethereal fog,
Huddled with festering scabs of trust abandoned,
Patience anticipates the hourglass of courage draining.
Shades of agony
Parade in shadows
As sands of time and space
Await to trigger fear,
Knowing such torturous weaponry
Remains far greater than pain itself.
Easing forth as doubt and despair,
Dread enters these reflective walls,
Invisible to light,
Empty of its own reflection,
Its image but a moist acknowledgment
Atop the lip,
Inside the arm's cavity,
Beneath the groin.
Thus enters the mystical
Initiating birth of reverence,
Impelling us to love the most that personage
who loves us most.
Hence the eidolon rises,
Hooking any and all on holy dread
From teachings unsolicited,
By a lamb of duplicitous intent.
Yet
Like the wolf we never see,
The tornado never heard,
The smoke without odor,
Emotions too can be elusive,
Even though never void of reality.
For some
Unlike emotions,
Feelings being of cognitive strength,
Overcome such dominance,
Evading emotion's fear,
Breaking out from shackles and bars
Into rational passion's embrace,
Where one's mind
Remembers well the once-dank black hole of fear,
Now but yesterday's smoke and mirrors,
As one tries to never lose hope.
I have never felt fear like that and hope I never will. Danger, I have been close to… Even close to death. But I did not fear. Perhaps because I felt no pain. No direct pain on my body that made me fear like so many wounded while watching others die before their eyes.
Why does war give a nation the right to scare or kill innocent people just trying to get out of the way? War is a barbarians way of settling land disputes when simple boundaries will do. Not fences or guard posts but simple boundaries telling people what is on one side of the boundary and giving them the choice to either stay on one side or go to the other.
When everyone is on their front door with a shotgun, will we have a happy society? No. We will only have a fearful society. But everyone that has a welcome sign on their front door and takes in a refugee until they get reestablished is a hero in my mind. If everyone is a hero, pain in your beautiful but painful poem will go away.
Ron