Here and Now Forever

Life delivers multiple experiences

That often rendered him feeling…

Well…

Unwhole.

He knew he wasn’t alone.

Many an adoptee

Found life experiences merging

With a haunted yearning for the self-knowledge others had.

Why was I abandoned?

Where might my heritage be now?

When will I ever have answers?”

Having a void where answers might be

Left him in a lifelong search for his lineage.

Even knowing missing generic maps made not the person,

As he had laughter to share,

Love blooming in all seasons,

And a conviction that the heart didn’t confine its blooming,

He still felt sadness at his somewhat unique brand of aloneness.

Even though his non-biological parents were nothing short of a blessing,

That part of him that had been inherited

From generations of ancestors

Meant the line in his hands,

Mirrored a past link.

The melody that echoed continuously

Reminded him that the whispered air of heritage

Often came forth making his steps dance,

Carrying him through the shadows of unknown time

To a song he knew only as sound from somewhere unexplained

Yet…

In his here and now,

He found strength in this vast expanse of the unfamiliar,

For he still had the precious heartbeat of his own existence

And the decisions he made, whether good or bad, he owned them.

He began accepting and believing the absence

Of genetic maps didn’t define him.  He accepted the responsibility

For being more than the sum of unknown parts.

Older now…

He knew the ebb of his mortal flotation

Would soon decay and find another tide,

One that might deliver him to a place of fewer unanswered questions,

Where he could embrace mystery with open arms.

Yes…

He was preparing for a reward

Knowing that in the end,

It was not the past that shaped him

But living in the present a life he chose to live

Perhaps…

Forever.