I PAID ATTENTION
--I paid attention when I didn''t get the invite.
--I paid attention when I didn''t get a thank you.
--I paid attention when I didn''t get the apology.
--I paid attention when a room would go silent when I entered.
--I paid attention when folks believed lies about me and never asked me.
--I paid attention when they didn''t show up for me.
--I paid attention when my important life events didn''t even get a congratulatory phone call or text.
--I paid attention to the disrespect, and yes, I took it personally.
So now I rarely leave my bubble, my space, and I choose my peace every time. If I make it to an event I''m invited to consider it a blessing. I raised the bar for who has the pleasure to be around MY SPIRIT. Because I have a good spirit.
After three trips to the ER for anxiety from trying to make everyone happy, I''m done fighting the negative spirits that were created to belittle me. It took me a decade of crying and depression to numb three decades of a few envious family members and friends.
But I finally did it and I''m at peace with myself. I say thank you everyday that this happened with only a handful of people. But it''s always the ones you love deeply who do this, because strangers can''t leave a deep wound inside of you. Strangers only leave little scratches.
I don''t understand cruelty and rudeness. I never will. So put on your crown, cry if you must, and hold your head high. You did all you could.
Painting by me -- Mary Lynn Plaisance (c) titled--- The Sound of Sadness
You can't make someone like you. It's impossible.
Thanks so much for the review. I've been absent from The Den for a while because my husband's heart went into A-vib on my birthday. SURPRISE... but since September, he's had a pacemaker and seems to be doing great at this time.
NOTE TO GLENDA...
GLENDA --- thank you so much for sharing your story. I'm glad you like the words I've written and thanks so much for the review. I LOVE your reviews, I do believe they help you as much as it helps me. You are a very special person to me. Never forget that. AGAIN-- thank you. I always paid attention-- Love ya-- Mary Lynn Plaisance
Thanks for the review on your blog Book Readers Heaven.
https://gabixlerreviews-bookreadersheaven.blogspot.com/2023/11/mary-lynn-plaisance-shares-i-paid.html?sc=1709972225052#c2146784647511524910
Find peace in your bubble there is something to be said about being alone and having time to reflect rather than agonize over why this or that happened. You'll be surprised how good you will feel.
Ron
Did you know that I often felt neglected and "invisible" while growing up? I knew I need not depend upon others to make me happy. I can do it myself.
I hope from now on you will feel much better about yourself. You have achieved so much. I often looked up to you as being successful! Yes, I did! I admire you for who you are and also the beautiful dolls that you made!
Sandie