Of Self-Evaluating Value and Evolving Change

This year is rapidly coming to an end. Have you ever stopped to wonder why life on earth is not eternal, and why things just doesn’t have any sustaining or long-lasting effect for bliss to be considered long term? Think about it these things: time waits for no one; love is fleeting without a higher standard of application; sexual climaxes lasts all of sixty seconds; tomorrow is not promised to anyone, and friends come and go. With this in mind, I borrowed time from my busy schedule and stole away to my favorite haunt to just let my mind abound leisurely. I’m continually seeking that space in time where that Still Small Voice is just as loud as I can hear it. Yes, I’m seeking an audience with Him. I’m in this state (of mind) because I feel it’s time to reevaluate and extend values that I’ve embraced in my life up to this point. You see, I’ve always solidified the notion that people should reinvent themselves every so often so that spontaneity and any new additions in the arena of their lives should spur action for new worlds to conquer, and new battles to wage for proficiency sake. I long admired those that were ambidextrous…those that allowed dexterity to define versatility for new levels of achievement. To this, I applaud my literary peers that can write across the board to give new meaning in thwarting efforts in being pigeonholed. I say that because for them to allow stereotypical colorings to be their own inkling, it would further illustrate points of view from a few authors that give meaningful truths to those that are teetering on the brink of failure. I think of Leslie Esdaile Banks and Walter Mosley as two who most exemplify this logic.

This week for instance, I've done some serious re-evaluation of my life. I got naked, stood before the mirror and saw the wonders of God’s penchant for putting everything where it should be at this point in my life. I do not lament for that which should have been, or what should be! I looked intrusively in that mirror and didn’t allow laxity to dispel the truth that stared back at me. I wanted to be truthful with myself and bare all of my shortcomings by welcoming the new additions to my physique, and rate the pros and cons of any successes that have befallen me, real or imagined. I want to take it to levels that would let me see what needed to be seen or reckoned with open-minded candor. Of course I prayed beforehand, and sought the audience with Him as I always do in my morning devotion time. It truly allows me to look at where I've been, where I am, where I should be, and where I want to go. I’m brutally honest with me, myself and I. Thus, I've decided to let 2008 and beyond be the defining points where change and challenge(s) will be the mantra to take on more, and other disciplines to keep my batteries charged. Age shall not define me, nor will it be a factor for others to look at me and suggest that “you’re getting old”.

My plan of action is simple: I will live a code of honor where ethics and just doing the right thing will give much more to meaningful intent. I’m an ordained leader in my church, and will take being a Deacon to levels which will allow others to see that followship can be entrusted with them seeking my counsel. I will live, learn and listen more. Live for the moment that is, and allow a free spirit to guide me in my liberal leanings. I will learn through the knowledge afforded me in my natural bent for reading and articulating thoughts on paper; and listening to observe the advantage it gives for discernable options, deductive reasoning, common sense and good logic to define how I conduct behavior patterns. I endeavor to discern who my true friends are, and only gravitate toward the things that can be beneficial to me for all upward mobility options. I will unclutter my mind, shore up my surroundings for a neater disposition. I will not hesitate to initiate and follow through on those things that need dumping, abandon what doesn't work, and not dwell on things I’m unwilling to commit to fully. The spiritual side of my life has been declared to new heights as I've always demanded others to do, and that is – "Do those things that mean the most to you and, most importantly to keep your head to the sky"! That is my motto. There's no better reason for me not to adhere to this bit of advice as I give this end of the year swan song, and the upcoming one the new me I profess to be. Pray for me, will ya?




Alvin C. Romer