This is how I feel.

Ok, so I'm happy! Sue me. What do you want to know? How I can be happy now? How can I just let the past, the pain, the everything that I was, go? I don't know. Honestly. Do I still have doubts, absolutely.

I look into the mirror and still see the same person I was. However this one is slightly different. This person, has a smile on her lips, a knowing gleam in her eye. This one sighs contentedly, with just the whisper of your breath in her memory.

How can this be? How can you let the shadows of doubt that have consumed you, your entire lifetime, flitter off into nothingness? It's not easy, I say, but I let it go, so that I can grow. So I can bask in your kindness, your unending love. The way you touch me, the way you love me, makes me complete. A whole person, when I've lived an existence of only half.

It'll always be a difficult battle. But I will battle the heavens and the hells, as long as you are by my side, to continue in the new existence I've found.

Finally, peace has entered my soul.