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Life in Shades of Blue 8/1/2007 4:37:14 AM
I have to say that it has been very difficult for me as of late. I have found myself floating in a sea of blue emotion and still the shore I seek to land upon is nowhere in sight. I feel so alone and lost, unable to connect with others, although I am surrounded by loved ones. It is a most desperate feeling from which I can see no escape.
My writing has completely stopped and in fact the desire to write seems to have abandoned me. I look out from this prison that is behind my eyes and see a world that I no longer desire to be a part of. It has twisted its self into a dirty, cruel, foriegn place, unrecognizable as the beautiful world I once gazed upon. It is to my greatest sorrow that I am unable to return it to its former state.
All that is right is wrong and all that is wrong is right. How can that be?
I see small glimpses of the beauty that once was there. They come like fireflies in the night flickering in and out of my vision, none large enough to drive the darkness from inside me. Darkness that threatens to obliterate who I am and leave me a shell, dead in the world of the living.
I wait it out as always, but it seems to take longer to pass these days than it once did. I wonder what it is that I am doing wrong that I cannot be happy as I was in my younger years.
Joy and sorrow do not come from without, they come from within.
