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Feeling adrift. 12/1/2007 9:46:34 AM
This year proved to be one of the most difficult years in my life.
For the past five years my wife had been fighting a brave and determined fight against cancer. Early this year she began loosing her fight and from February onward things went from bad to worse.
In the months of June and July she had been admitted to seven different hospitals in quick successions for examinations, minor surgery, scans, tests and treatment.
At home I was her sole carer and as she was loosing strength I dealt with all household chores as well as taking her to outpatient clinics, etc.
I had no time for blogging or anything else. I felt burned out.
In mid August she finally lost her fight and passed away in the early hours of the 15th of August, at home.
With that my life came to an abrupt halt too. Loosing a partner after 55 years of being together leaves a gigantic hole in ones life, that is impossible to fill.
I am still numb from the loss and find it very hard to focus, to concentrate on anything other than the bare essentials. On a day-to-day basis I cope in a fashion, but I feel "adrift" like a castaway.
I have no idea how long it will take to get back to a semblance of normality; others, with same or similar experiences tell me it can take a long time.
I sign in here at AD once in a while, but I seem to have lost direction… at least for the time being…
