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MY BLOG NO.7 IS REALLY 16 10/23/2005 1:17:19 PM
BLOG NO 7.
I regret having missed the courage of youthful creativity by feigning responsibilities of parenthood of marriage rather than accepting the fear of financial insecurity. When what I had was only the illusion of a frail and paltry financial reality. I was more married to steady employment that became the choice of my own enslavement. Now in old age I make feeble attempts at recapturing a faded creativity. This is NOT self-pity but more of the acceptance of glaring reality. My truth captures and strangles me without mercy, as all truth should be for me because of my continuing struggle against my own mediocrity. I am trying to live with and overcome the lies my truth tells. If I am whole, will I accept wholeness? Can I? Will I ever overcome my envy of those youths who are brave, courageous, and productive, or shall I continue to babble in the wind even though I tire of most things painful? My guess is that I shall continue to attempt to stand while crawling within my own reality.
