hmm, life is really getting hard now. With my ex-girl and me, i've been pray about it for the longest now, i don't have any idea what i should do with her, like my emotions for her have disappeared but i just really wanna be close friends with her but its really hard because i will be so sad when ever i'm around her because i think of what our relationship could of been and the adventures we could have with one another, its very tough to not think of her and not shed a tear, and yesterday i was over her house (after we attended a movie with her best friend and mom) and her ex ex boyfriend came over and i was so pissed because she acts so differnet with him then she treats me and so well that was going on i excuse myself and go outside to play with her dog and text her best friend. So then her mother came outside to talk to me about how she and olivia and her father knows why i'm i went outside becuase Corey (ex ex boyfriend) was in there playing wiht her, and Mrs. Walker explained to me that Olivia doesn't have any feelings for Corey and sshe never do such a thing to me, and well she was talking i was listening and thinking to myself "Yeah sure because she sure wasn't acting that way" but Mrs> Walker was so right  and then Mrs. Walker said to me she didn't enjoy the movies and how i was treating Olivia the whole day, and she said that olivia said "when ever he jokes aroound with me him always says i'm joking with you or JK. but he didn't say that at all today" and that right there really broke my heart becaus ei thiught she will always know i will never say or do something to hurt her or hurt her feelings and i will alwys play with her but i guess she didn't get it today,and when i told olivia why she call me mrs.walker (or olivia) thought i was soo very serious when i said that and that i snapped at her for doing that, i did NO such thing at all, i was joking with her becasue i already know she didn't have her phone in her hands and that she called me befoe the movie to see where i was at but i didn't answer, and they took it so serious, that really hurted me because reallly want them to know and think i reallllly am a very sweet and kind person (sometimes out spoken but that another subject) and i really like make people happy and smile and laugh but yesterday no one seen that, ppl thought i was "angry" or "mad" becuase she broke up with me, i;m over that and NO way i will be mad over something like that i think when she did that it was awsome and really for the best but ppl is thinking that but i'm not at all but sometimes i am sad and a little jealous but not really. Thats night i talked to Mrs. Walker again and we talked about the same stuff we did before, and it reeallllllllllllllly all make sense to me now because i feel i was pressuring olivia in our relationship but i wasn't at all but ppl say i was, i just wanted to talk to her everyday (not allday) but evryday like a regular couple, and i guess olivia was mad at me and said to her mother " When we broke up i said i want to be close friends and hang out with each other and nothing will change between us instead we won't be girlfriend and boyfriend, but idk now after what he did today got me thinking twice about that" and she told me that i was thinking " WhATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT??? i did NOTHINGGGG bad at all today i was just trying to make her happy and laugh" but i guess she forgot who i was and took it serious. Yesterday was sorts one of the worst days i had ever had because it really seems like my world is crashing down and no one really cares about my feeelings, it was tough when, but i got though it, i just a friend to talk to about this (because all my other friends isn't going to listen to all of this and probably laugh at me becuase their not believers) I pray that in this week i can show the walkers that i really didn't mean what alll i said yesterday and i was just trying to make her happy frm the first time i seen her.........................................................i guess i fail horribly :/