Faith-ful..True to one's word, vows. I thought that I could always live by those words in any relationship that I was in, but instead I ignored that definition, it was just like any word written with a pen, the struggle I faced with the years that I was there, was it a waste of time? I dont think so, because throughout the years I was still out getting mine. It takes a lot to please a woman that knows exactly what she wants from a person, if you got it then you will know it . if you dont, you will never know it. I won't tell you, instead just give you that sweet talk to feel your head. The years that just play back in my mind.the battles the heartache, the time. the battles the heartache the time, the battles the heartache the time. it became repetitive, thought I would never step out, anyone that stepped to me I would let you know instead of stepping out. But then came the black, the blue, the purple marks on my arms, on my legs on my face, then I began to think. what am I doing in this oh so dangerous space. thought the seed that was planted by you would make you stop but it didn't . just got worse. but why did it get worse?.I was that girl for so many years before I became that woman, I was that girl for so many years with your child before I became that woman with your child, I was that girl for so many years before I became that woman, before I became that wife. but again..why did it get worse. the love of my life being a witness to her moms pain and hurt..really hurt..so why did it get worse. Having to sit now and have a child that was 2 years old then bring back the memories of what her ears and eyes witnessed really hurt..so why did it get worse?..I never knew if I was going to make it to see the next day..didnt know if I was gonna wake up so my child would have a mom the next day..so why did it get worse.?....Well love was lost..and love was gone..so that gave me a reason to roam. Every chance I got..I had a spot to get away and to get hit in that spot.. It was way overdue from years of them seeing me with you..but I never took the chance to acknowledge them..until you gave me that reason to be with them..every week..every night..when I was free..I was free..I was free with him alone..away from the things that were going on at home. I tried to stop many times but it became addictive..we both tried to give each other up..but we were too much in love with each other...which pushed me away from (you) the other. I never knew what I was missing until he gave it to me..had me begging for more..night after night..week after week..he introduced me to positions that I've never saw..positions that I have never seen..I introduced him to the nice flavors inside of me..I turned him into a fein.....so faithful is something that I tried to be..but it didnt work for me..you were the love of my life...I loved you a lot..but when you did dirt to me...he became that love and filled your spot.