It feels frayed at the edges,
unfinished, incomplete...
I guess that perhaps one day
I will be able to look back
and understand the lessons
I have learned here.
I feel that shadow has
visited my heart, and left
it broken and lying in
pieces upon my soul floor.
You slammed your door
upon my spirit...and would
not let me another step
near it (your heart); another
bruise to add to the
sea of sorrow in which you drown.
And yes, my actions, earned yours.
If I could take back those moments...
if I could fix this human heart
of mine and teach it patience -
I would not have hurt you.
If I could trust that you felt the same...
I ask you, please forgive the words I said -
This mortal heart, as yours,
stumbles and falls along the way.
Would that it could learn to
see and hold the warmth;
no matter how much darkness
lingered around the edges
of another's light.
Lord, take me out of his light...
There is naught else I can do -
This door is sealed forever, closed tight.
Unforgiving - endless night.

© Deborah L. Kelly