I Awaken…..
I’m in a small space…..
It’s completely dark…….
It’s…….. completely silent……
…..First thought?.... 
Fear?..... Silence? .... or shout my head off?

I remain silent…….
I try to reason out my alternatives.
My ears are alert for any sound.
Total silence… Nothing!!!!
Am I deaf?
,,,,Or is there no sound? 

It’s still dark……
My eyes,,,,, either haven’t adjusted to the dark,,,,,
Or,,,,, It is totally black dark,
,,,,,Or.....   I’m blind! 

Worst case!
I’m deaf, I’m blind, I’m in a casket……..
 
………Best case?
I’m dreaming the whole damn thing.

I continue to listen,,,
Still no sound????
I’m breathing,,,
My heart beats…..
YEAH!!!! 
….I can hear my heart beats….
Maybe I’m not deaf….
WAIT!!!!!
You really don’t HEAR heart beats,,,,
,,,,You feel them.

YOU STILL COULD BE DREAMING!!!!

 But,,,, you’re breathing.,,,
You can hear yourself breathing....
Your hands are free.....
You scratch something.....
You heard that,,,,,
You’re hearing is ok.
But you hear nothing?????
Why?
You can feel 
But,,,,, You feel nothing,,,,
You can touch,,,
But,,, still you feel nothing....
You’re confused....
you still can’t see.
....And all is quiet.
....And 

YOU STILL COULD BE DREAMING!!!!

I whisper my name,,,,,
I heard it……
….Nothing hurt when I spoke….
It sounded,,,,
I heard the sound,,,,,
I didn’t hurt……..

…..I’m still breathing
I can hear,
I can speak
I feel & I don’t hurt.
(except my head)
It’s still pitch black
And there is no sound
No voices,,,
No radio’s,,,,
No TV’s….
No automotive sounds,,,
No mechanical sound of any kind!!!!
No wind,,,,,
No rain,,,,,
Silence,,,,,,
Total quiet,,,,,
Ear shattering quiet. 

,,,,What should I do?

YOU ARE THE JUDGE….. 

HUNG JURY????

OR

DAMN!!!! 
THAT WAS SOME GOOD SHIT!!!!!

 WHICH IS IT?????
I STILL DON'T KNOW......

How did I get here?
I don’t remember…
What is the last thing I do remember?
I was at a party,,,,
We were drinking,,,,
Somebody passed around some shit
I refused…..
(once in a while)
Maybe a little pot,,,,
I can take it,,,,or leave it....
But nothing else!!!!
I drink, ,,,,But I’m a prude….
I don’t do any of that other shit.

I’m cold…
My head hurts….
am I hung over?
That’s got to be it!
I got shit faced,,,,
and passed out…..
but, where?
Why so dark?
Why so quiet?

Starving!!!!
I smell coffee….
I smell perfume….

I REMEMBER!!!

She’s beautiful,,,,
She’s "friendly,,,,"
And she cooks????? 

I knew it!
Dammit!!!
It just had to be a dream…… 

BUT WAIT!!!! 

….That smell of coffee is real….
That smell of bacon is too.
….and I remember that perfume….
and she is cooking….. 

WOW!!!

Why so cold?
My clothes are missing.
I’m naked as a jaybird.
I feel a draft
Where is that coming from?
What’s that smell?
Bacon…..!
Someone’s cooking bacon?
I’m..... !!!! 
WHAT A GREAT PARTY!!!!!

As it turns out, I’m in a penthouse
way the hell up in the air
maybe 60 floors up
maybe more.....

,,,,Above the noise,
well insulated
well air conditioned
too well.....
the perfect love nest
for two....
But not for one
too cold....
too dark,,,,
too quiet,,,
too lonely,,

the door opens
there she is
she's naked
silhouetted
against the bright light
so inviting....

she smiles,

"Good morning “big fella.”

To be continued……..

In your dreams!!!!!