Those Disgusting Eyes

Those disgusting eyes are judging me

I bow my head, not wanting to see

A silenced voice... unable to speak

Crippled by fear... there is no peace

Those disgusting eyes see me again

I hide my feelings... fain a slight grin

Turmoil builds within my head

Crippled by fear... inside I am dead

Those disgusting eyes halt my needs

Casting infinite doubt inside of me

The glares I feel from those eyes

Cripple me completely... more of me dies

Those disgusting eyes staring into me now

Consuming my spirit... I don't know how

Controlling my life with that relentless stare

Crippling me completely... nothing else compares

Those disgusting eyes stare back at me

Dropping me hard, down to my knees

The silence, the turmoil, all the doubt within

I have crippled myself... This Has To End!

Those disgusting eyes lay dormant now

Silently waiting for me to allow

Praying they stay in their morbid place

Nevermore wanting to occupy that suicidal space.

Shirley Ann Parkerson

July 7, 2005