A Mistake?

At the 'gate', I made a decision

I returned to earth

My life to continue

I thought it had some worth

Yes, I have written poetry

A past life story told

But, in reality, I remain ill, and

Now find that I am old

I returned to exist

In varying degrees of pain

Added to breathless limitations

Relief, not mine to gain

I have many useless plans

Dreams that shine, then fade

Inevitable cancellations to

Arrangements eagerly made

The worst, I feel forgotten

By those the order gave

'Go back, you have work to do'

I have tried to be so brave

But, then, I could have died

After many years of pain

I must have made a big mistake

As I'll have to do it all again