You didn't give it to me so you can't take it away. I was made for this so you won't tame me. God grant me the power to change the unchangeable. Let the Devil know that you will be with me forever more. Life for me is deeper than being accepted, it’s about helping the neglected. I have experience that once upon a time, too, but in the mist of that God I found you. You made it all clear for me. Help me to be a blessing to others in distressed because life ain’t nothing, but a test. I've stressed and I've been depressed. You can hardly tell it though because who've looked passed it all and seen my best. The less attention I give to mess the more I gravitate. I can't hate who has hurt me because it’s such a weak emotion. I really hope y'all receiving this. I'm leaking out more as I continue to release the sealed. I have a testimony, but then again who doesn't as we rise above it.

All I ever had was my mother and she was like no other, but I'm even closer to her other seeds and that's a real bond indeed. Not knowing who I at all times was, but I knew who I belonged to. Everyone around me moved, but it seemed like I at each time just stood. I found joy in the pain and through the pen it fades. I had a plenty of dates with guilt and shame. I've been in relationships with misery and even had some company with me. Different never defined, I was complexed in unique. Solutions made sense when problems existed. I was fatherless, but I was given a step figure which showed me since you won't someone else will. That was all it did because better it didn't make me feel. I find gratefulness in him so I played my part has his child. Who I am today, God has much to do with I must say. Many times I strayed away, but he was there anyway. I'm at the point where I accept that wrong gone come, but right gone make it leave. Fake will have to become real to the fake. No matter what happens, God will get the praise. Every day, in every single way. I'm a female with the mind of a man. That's probably why I only have a few female friends. I wasn't ever jealous that's just makes you even more worthless. When Kay went to heaven I knew nothing worse could surprise me. I wake up in the morning and give God his and tell ‘em I thank ya. Without Him I won't make it so to Him my body and soul is dedicated. In this story so much still has to be fulfilled about how this lady is forming into a woman...this is my testimony, but God still has more to show me..it's coming.