So sorry to be such a party-pooper atdemo, People! Will look forward to being back in the saddle sooooon! xx
... Grumpy but grateful is the story behind this one, I think... K xx
BEHIND ENEMY LINES
Radiotherapy and Oncology
Maxillofacial and Oral
Pain Control and Palliative Care:
departments of unknown horrors
secreted deep in hospital’s
grumbling bowels.
Within cavernous space
behind impregnable walls
I’m laid out on cold altar,
stripped to the waist,
small and vulnerable,
an Amazon child.
In restricted access battle zone
alone I face The Beast:
a close-range weapon of nuclear war
designed to destroy
my body’s enemy
before taking me frail
down with it.
It has me in its sights
as it assimilates mass data,
aligning grids to make straight the lines
of this so-called “friendly fire”.
My arms are bent above my head,
wings clipped and pinned in callipers,
ensuring no escape.
While observed on monitors
behind safe glass
I plan defeat of my end on death row –
watched not by faces grim with malice
but by friends and family willing me to live…
Buzzing, clicking, The Beast flies low;
not mine the finger that’s on the trigger
but still I challenge the unblinking eye:
“Just press/don’t press the goddamn button –
I want to fly home safe”.
I do not detect "grumpiness" in this compelling poem, Kate. It makes me yearn to "make it all better." Sincerest wishes of love, peace, strength and healing to you.
I am going to have to agree with Aberjhani. You have a wonderful ability to filter your pain into something that will encourage and offer strength to those who have to endure the same. I am appluading your gifts!
Far more than "grumpiness," in these lines I sense a miraculous courage that radiates inspiration and grace. If the true work of the poet is to transform unwanted pain and despicable horror into welcomed knowlege and beauty worth celebrating, you do that work extremely well.
i think you know safety is really an illusion but hope is the spark which allows you to fly wherever you heart desires and faith is the vechicle that carries you there ...
You are in my prayers, sweetie! Take care, and hope you feel better soon!
(((Gentle Hugs))) and much love (and many prayers, too!), your friend in America, Karen Lynn in Texas. :(
I need your prayers too: my step-mama's daughter had a baby boy, Randall, last week, and he has pulmonary atresia. He is in Children's Hospital in Columbus, Ohio, and may need surgery down the road. Pray all goes well for him. Also pray for mama (his granny) and my daddy (his step-granpy). Also pray for his mama, Bethie! Thanks! :)
Dearest Kate, this is superb no party pooper are you, Honest forthright and no messing, this is a powerful endicment of the fighting spirit within. I'd have you in my squad anyday solider.
Keep fighting girl...we're with you all the way.
I admire your strength and courage, Kate. I don't know if I could face the friendly fire and continue to focus on others and how I affect them. I fear that I would be wrapped in fear and self pity and "a little grumpy" would be a blessing compared to how my mood would be. You have been through a lot and you still have an upward climb ahead of you, so feeling a bit out of sorts would be expected. When you are going through such intensive treatment, it shines new light on the old saying "That which does not kill us makes us strong." I appreciate that you come here and allow us to be involved in what you are going through, it gives us an opportunity to wish you well and to understand that you need our prayers and our positive energy. Hang in there, darlin' you will be back to full steam in no time.
Take care,
Sherry
Radiation saps all your energy, kills the appetite,makes you miserable, and if that isn't enough there is no alternative.
It's a treatment that must be endured for hope of its success, which by the way is very high rate and in the end worth it. I helped take care of my niece who went through it, so my heart and prayers go out to you! As do healing vibes of energy which I hope will reach yours, for some relief...Being grumpy isn't a crime you know;-) Who has a better right...
our hearts and eyes are fixed on your recovery and the day you spread your wings again, Kate. there's no doubt about it. and, btw, I think you're entitled to a little grumpy. you are so incredibly amazing, able to write like this from "behind enemy lines." praying for your strength, resolve and ultimate triumph through healing, Dawn
Sounds like a horror movie with you as the lead actor. A truly scarry event that will be repeated for six weeks. Your strength will see you through this ordeal
and our prayers for you will bombard heaven that the beast that caused this will no longer exist. Get plenty of rest we need you back in good health.
Love
George
Oh Kate! Selfishly, my heart hurts for me because I adore you and your brilliant poetry. I am praying for you to be healed. Good write about a very serious situation. xxxooo Janet
Oh Sweet Kate I wish I could have been there close by to hold a hand and whisper that you will always fly with or without the wings of an angel. Your heart and soul are pure and I know how you feel because I felt similarily after my own recent surgery. Take heart in knowing you have sooo many friends here on the den who love and need you.
Re-Release! No longer back-listed. Return to the Olde Ways. The hustle and bustle of modern day life has brought many of us to a quick fix attitude.This book is for those of you who are fed up; have looked at your life and your loved ones and realize
Re-Release! No longer back-listed. Return to the Olde Ways. The hustle and bustle of modern day life has brought many of us to a quick fix attitude.This book is for those of you who are fed up; have looked at your life and your loved ones and realize
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I am going to have to agree with Aberjhani. You have a wonderful ability to filter your pain into something that will encourage and offer strength to those who have to endure the same. I am appluading your gifts!
even grumpy your poetry is always alluring ;)
((((((HUGS)))))) and prayers,
Love, Karla.
Many heartfelt prayers for you Kate.
Love & Light,
Joseph
Love Tinka
(((Gentle Hugs))) and much love (and many prayers, too!), your friend in America, Karen Lynn in Texas. :(
I need your prayers too: my step-mama's daughter had a baby boy, Randall, last week, and he has pulmonary atresia. He is in Children's Hospital in Columbus, Ohio, and may need surgery down the road. Pray all goes well for him. Also pray for mama (his granny) and my daddy (his step-granpy). Also pray for his mama, Bethie! Thanks! :)
D
watched not by faces grim with malice
but by friends and family willing me to live…
And we are all certainly doing that, Kate - Fight On, you will beat this Beast.
Keep fighting girl...we're with you all the way.
Many blessings
and loads of hugs
Paul;-) X
and blitz the enemy with total poetics.
xx k
Great expressions felt like I was a fly on de wall. Till some blighter went splat....
Take care,
Sherry
It's a treatment that must be endured for hope of its success, which by the way is very high rate and in the end worth it. I helped take care of my niece who went through it, so my heart and prayers go out to you! As do healing vibes of energy which I hope will reach yours, for some relief...Being grumpy isn't a crime you know;-) Who has a better right...
Eileen
My heart is with you.
and our prayers for you will bombard heaven that the beast that caused this will no longer exist. Get plenty of rest we need you back in good health.
Love
George
Hugs (careffully)
Pops