What is real beauty. Beauty defined.

If true beauty is on the inside
Why do I look in the mirror in disgust?
So depressed it causes chronic fatigue and nausea
I wish I could sleep until forever came twice

If true beauty is truly on the inside
Why are there flawless people in advertisements?
Determined to hide their flaws in make-up and surgery
Infiltrating and disrupting the minds of adolescents

If true beauty is really on the inside
Why does the world look on the outside first?
Out casting what is not considered normal
Making normal a regulation for society

If true beauty lives on the inside
Why have I been an out cast since birth?
Laughed at without making jokes
Is my exterior a joke of its own?

If true beauty is all on the inside
Why do I scream to the top of my lungs?
When I am alone and no one can hear me
Wishing I looked a different way

If true beauty lies on the inside
Why do I cry for no particular reason?
Until the point of committing suicide
Heavily contemplating slicing my wrist

If true beauty roams on the inside
Should I open myself up to find it?
Cutting through all the flesh and tissue
Ripping all intestines and organs out

If true beauty is not on the outside
Why does my soul mate think I am so beautiful?
Showering me with her unconditional love
Dampening my heart and making me whole