~Seasonal Blues~

presents all opened and admired
safely secured for travel

one last toast offered
glasses raised high

hugs and smiles all around
waving them off with tears

in front of the fireplace
pouring a glass of wine

staring into the flames
I put my holiday face away

letting in those private thoughts
I hide behind a smile

in this self imposed solitude I am not alone
holiday doldrums drape shroud like over me

walking into my shadow places
taking indecision and confusion with me

answers still remain illusive
playing hide and seek with my equilbrium

fragmented thoughts and memories
peeling outwards one upon the other

in an intricate labyrinth
of overlapping whorls

coiling together
in convoluted images

yet memories strand me on the barrier of loneliness
in my personal void of isolation

(c) December 26, 2004