Sometimes I feel so good I just want to burst into laughter

and maybe jump on a trampoline.

I want to eat watermelon

and sit in our old backyard and admire the sky,

watch the wind wrestle the trees,

listen to the incessant laughter of a

three-year-old Kurtis as you tickle him in the house.

Sometimes I feel so good I want to go back to the days when

I had faith in mankind.

I want to dream and sing and write and bleed...

bleed the way everyone else does

instead of sitting back, playing it safe,

witnessing the world move on without me.

But other times, when I'm lost and alone,

all I want to do is sleep...

sleep to not feel the pain. I just want to

not feel the pain.

I am lost and alone.

I am lost and no one is looking for me.

Happy Anniversary.