faith

as to deflation/empty/just plain feeling old and useless and worthless and all...

most of all..

the awareness of loss.

yet faith they been sayin.. have

faith ye faithless fools...

faith never got me nuthin cept

lookin like a barefaced pilgrim.

heard that one afore too.

this time I listened to that

whisper crying soul to me.

not faith it said.

I m here.  I m here.  Hear me.

and this time I did.

now livin in my time

beadin fingers into

spilling protein onto old jeans

and beads.  maybe this my niche.

dark gone.

now.
 

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