The Secret

There’s a scared, defenseless, wounded child
Hiding inside my soul
She’s concealing the truth and keeping inside
Something she’s never told.
She hurts so much but she won’t tell
The story of her pain
This is how she protects herself
And it’s a way to avoid the shame.
She trusts no one, and she lets me know
That’s why this exists
She’s scared to let the feelings go
It is such a dangerous risk.
For years the truth has remained unknown
But now I am getting strong
I know I didn’t have to face It alone
As I have for so long----
This scared, defenseless, wounded child
Found a way to deal with her pain
But I know deep inside somewhere
It’ll surface one of these days—
So where’s the key to release the lock
I need inside my soul
Because once I start crying I just cannot stop
And I just feel so empty and cold
Let the walls come crashing down
Let my heart release the pain
And let the Peace of mind I find
Be the light that shines my way…..
August 9,2001

Was written while working on recovering from past sexual abusers in my childhood.