just wondering 

have you thought about ...
letting go
of your tight hold
on my throat?

have you thought about ...
getting up
and going far
the hell away?

have you thought about ...
the possibility
that this is
the life you chose?

have you thought about ...
the idea
that you could
wash your hands clean?

have you thought about ..
a life
lived neatly
free of blood spill?

have you considered at all ...
the option
to quit
your f'ing bellyaching?

apparently not
since ...
i still feel
this hold on me
the crushing nature
and burning gut intensity
of the blame-game-flame
and your filthy hands
still reaching
for my jugular. 

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To carry a grudge is like being stung to death by one bee. -William Walton