I'm back, God.
Why do you give me such freedom?
Do you sit around waiting for me
to get in touch?
Yes, yes, I know you are
in my horse's eyes
the wag of my dog's tail
in sunlight streaming onto the surface of a lake
in memories I have of a lover
I don't invite you in.
You are there
even when I'm not looking for you.
You really are relentless in pursuit of me.
You wanted me all along.
Now I'm pursuing you.
I want you in my life.
I want to go steady with you.
Without you I fall
into the cauldron of shame fear
abandonment loss
I haul myself out
or maybe you help me
I want you in my life
every day
every minute of every day
when I sleep
when I'm awake
when I talk to students
when I'm digging in the ground
falling off my horse
figuring out whether I trust some other human being
I do not want to go on without you.
Will you be my Valentine?
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