Markie for your heart, it sounds to me as if you should let this go as you stated it can never be so all you are doing is causing yourself pain, it's time to say goodbye.
Using Calgary as a backdrop the author satirizes the self-serving nature of the public as it continues to fatten itself, not only physically, but egotistically as well.
Carole~
Nor Should you?
Patrick
Anna
Georg
Be always safe,
Karen
Your #1 Newfie Friend Hugs XOXOXO, Rose