~ Things I Must Say ~

I'd like to say
I think I feel truth in emotions
But my sanity's impaired

In the morning of each new day
I think my visions are bizarre at play
I repeat those words
Till sleep's silence again

Where am I
Do I go astray
Tell me that I'm sane forever and a day
But time is lost or stopped
With no sick deeds to play

I'd like to ask a question
But not of you
But of fish ... a cod
To find out why I beached

Yet I had no pole as I'm a retard
I'd ask the fish what is to be
My terms of punishment

Because I know not
What controls my mind and heart
So much clouds my vision
The real world dimmed in shadows

I'd like to tell the world
But it has no ears
Fishing love was no mistake
When I overcame my fears

Oh, my heart is burning ...
Please send me some Tums
To this day I carry my thoughts bare
... as is my mind

But thoughts bring questions
I can't understand
I'd like to say some magic words
Like Shazzam
Which melt hearts in a welded mode

My deceit is functioning excelled
And hide my acts
For magic words are real
And there for me are no clues

Pricing would be too great
Yet the merchants of fantasy steal
What can I do when I don't know what's real

There are so many things
I'd like to say
But not sure of a truth

Words I hear in my dreams
Seemingly in foreign tongues
The words I hear annoy me
So now I'm trapped somewhere in fraud

Oh, my mind needs to rest in Britain
But fantasy travels me
To unreal suspicious realities
And my toys are echoes from voices
For I know not ... my true intentions

When time on earth
Confuses my words
To anyone ... I smile

Carrying my feathered wings
Covered in dung and dew
All that I feel is numbness
And confusion for cold words kiss me

In mind, contemplated stench
I fear for the kisses I missed
And mono conversation is grayed
By the dullness of my kingdom's fog

No matter. No matter.
No matter. No matter.
No matter.

I will Always love my fantasy in delusions
I can't explain what happened
Nor anything else
Whatever it was ...
It changed me

I cannot stop
And have no room in my heart
For anyone but myself

I made a promise to me
Little did I know
What promise I wished for
Yet I know now

I can Never break my promise
Even if I try
If I never speak again
There is one thing I want to know
Yet I pause in mind
And believe it with all my heart
~~~ Am I all right?

I know there will be someone out there
Who is like me
And that someone is
... me, myself and I.

Forever in yesterdays
In my mind's confusion
there's nothing else!

If tomorrow comes late
Or my watch is slow
How will I know how much I missed

If I should go before time ends
Should I leave this world behind
How will sea cod know my devotions
And how can I tell fishy things
Before it's too late

If all fishing lines go down
In the darkness of life
How will she feel my fins around her
If I become hooked

Will my words never be heard
How will cod or smelt hear me whisper, "bubbles"

And how can I make each understand
My line will never die

If I should wake without
Feeling darkness inside
How will my voyage go on
Without fishiness at my side

If dreams of each should end
With questions still unanswered
How will I face eternity alone at ebb's tide
And how will I know
Without them smelling, specie fish
I simply never did exist

Know me well!
Fish smell!
Therefore, I am!

~ Ravings of a Man's Insane Erratic Love ~