Addiction to Beginnings

What is this compulsion,

This avoidance of challenge,

The fleeing from obstacles of growth,

Never allowing the apex to become?

Might it be…

Lack of focused practice

Of what is needed?

The aggressive slide back to another beginning

May be but the fear of succeeding,

The anticipated comfort of sympathy,

The never having to admit defeat,

The overwhelming lure to tranquilize.

How pitiful the many who avert

The daring of their worth,

Regardless of sticks and stones of discouragement,

Entrust desertion guarantees an undertow

Of self-loathing.

Often…

To obviate respect for a commitment

May represent the primary obstacle

In the erosion of one’s extra effort,

That reserve of tenacity we all possess

For a relationship’s beginning

To ultimately stand atop the citadel

Of sustained responsibility and self-respect.