I told myself it was impossible..
It could never be…
I would always be chained
Never to be free…
.
Everything inside of me needed you
Like breath…
No matter what I told myself
I needed to breathe…
.
I loved …but not like this
My family…my friends…
A different kind of love
I had enough in me for that
.
Looking back at what I was
What I went through
Who I was…
I was grateful I did
.
But I never knew how much there was
What there could be
What I could be …
Before you…
.
Before you there was no one I wanted to walk with
No one I wanted to sit and talk with
No one I wanted to spend my life with
Before you…
.
Closing my eyes…
I can see your smile…every glance
That very first time…
Something shifted in me…
.
Everything I closed off
To help me survive to this point
Began to struggle free
You undid me…
.

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