I’ve been a bit part player

In this movie they call life,

I thought I was the star

But maybe only to my wife,

To the rest I made the numbers up,

In a cast of endless souls,

Always just outside of touching reach

Of my ambitions and my goals.

Yet, believing I was doing 

The best for everyone,

Now I’m wondering if I was right

In anything I’ve done?

Inadvertently, without intent,

I know some things I did,

Hurt those closest to my heart,

Not least of all, my kids.

But in honesty, hand on my heart,

It was never my intent,

And everything I did, I swear

I believed I did for them,

I used to be so certain,

I used to be so sure,

Now I just don’t know

About anything, anymore.

Am I worth a moment? 

Or even a single breath,

Can I do anything worthwhile

With whatever time I’ve left?

Perhaps it doesn’t matter

I’m just a man in many billion

No more than a gain of sand

In a desert like dominion.

No more or less important,

Than any stranger on the street.

But there’s a feeling deep within my soul

Of ultimate defeat,

By 

S.E.Ralph