Denial is a thick armor.

“I am not angry.”

Denial so deep, numbness is the only feeling.

If a feeling surfaces, it is crushed like a fly.

Ego controls the response.

“How can you feel like this?”
“People will judge you harshly.”
“You are not spiritual if you feel like this.”

Pushed deeper out of fear.
Ego can be heard again:

“What you feel does not matter.”
“What others feel about you matters!”

Life goes on …
Controlled bursts of joy, yet shallow in depth.
Controlled bursts of anger, only allowed with the right cause and in right place.

Tight throat,
 reminder of repression of inner truth.

Aching and tight body
reminder of repressed emotions.

Beware of the time,
when the emotion is forced out in rage or
in the form of disease.

Copyright .2014 by Shervin Hojat