Torn between two worlds.

On one,

My family and friends.

It's a place I know.

A place I've always been.

A secure place.

Where love and acceptance is a given!

My place,

My Values,

My goals,

have grown and risen.

A place I thought to live

untill I was very very old.

On the other there is us,

and a love I cherish and hold dear.

Someone to be with me

through my "golden years"!

I think to say goodbye to the first

and embrase the other,

But,

Fear rises up

strong enough to smother.

I know not what to do!

Once I was a wife

then just 3 son's Mother.

The Distance is great

many long miles between,

the thoughts of the first

shakes my faith in the other.

You see,

I know the rules

what to expect

being nothing but

mother

or grandmother.

I've tested those waters

and found them soothing.

They wash over me

and settle into a shimmering pool.

I can choose to swim deep

without any fear.

When I surface

its always the same....

My family,

My life,

My hopes,

My dreams,

and they all felt so serene.

I'm caught between one

and the other.

In the middle,  I see both.

My heart misses one

and longs for the other!

Is there no way to have both!?

So, still the tears flow

for this world I may never know!

For this love I may have to let go.

©2006 Tina Clark