i spent a great deal
of time
here
very early in the morn'
expressing my needs
the voices
my greed
limited choices
somehow
all
my work
was lost
and unaccounted for
i've nothing to say now
to even the score
or explain how

this

page seems
so empty
void
unimportant
to me
at this hour
but that's ok
we will take
the easy way
out

again

blaming it all
on my being tired
and off
schedule
this is easier
then
for you to dismiss
it
as anything

more

important

fine.
funny
everyone used to
think
i'd regret this
tattoo

i don't

not at all

someday
perhaps
only
on my death bed
someone
will remember

me

as I truly am
seemingly
unpredictable
in these
troubled times

but my markings
on my body
tattoos
scars
explain
so much more
than anyone
apparently

wants

to accept.

fine.
maybe you are right
 

maybe I am

F***ed up
Insecure
Neurotic and
Emotional

of course
there are others
who think of it 

differently

this way
is so much
more entertaining

after all
there are times
when I am

Fascinating
Intrigueing with
Nymphomatic
Energies

yes, well
if you 'know' me
at all
you would know
I could go on and on
with this
little scheme

irrelevant
 

what really matters
or what should
is that I am still
here

regardless

of the methods
i use to keep
my head up
knowing
that you don't
really
understand

but I am

EA-1

and I will
in fact
explain
my purpose
my way
in this

wretched
court
of law

therapy . NiNe

just a reminder call

call if you can't make it

or need to make

an appointment

for another day

thank you.

long pause

message erased

yep, it's a hat day
smile for me baby
yeah...you've come a long way
smile, stand straight

hmmm not much to work with here
glad you like my hair

have a good day

"don't worry""you're fine"

forced half smile
at least it looks
half ass believable
so you will
 

stop
asking me
questions
you don't want
the real answers
too