Back then when, my own child, I needed to hear you both.
Now I'm old and I want suicide best as you.
Best as you and Sexton.
Couldn't possbile be as best as you.
Best and you and Sexton.
BUT I CAN DIE AS SIMPLY AS YOU BOTH. MY SOUL IS SIMPLE.
What?
Aren't all the souls as simple as you and me?
They will laugh at the spelling sweet child of night....aren't....won't they?
But underdeath it all there---
only a hooope of death.
D----eath..death...a great groodbye.
I slit my wrists, and wondered back then about how awful His Idea was.
Life, sweet life,--- is there love?
If so, then I no longer wish to slit my wrists
I only hooope.
I hoope (mispelled)
But now my age tells me that it will soon be my heart that stops....stops...stops..hurray!
I'm not 23, when I slit my wrists and worshipped you sweet Poestesses--I'm now quite old and quite less gifted and dream of death and know of death much more than you---sweet poetesses.
I know beacuse I'm still alive.
Isn't that so nice?
Taking words and messaging them until they break into brittle peices
like my breath.
I'm losing my breath sweet angels.
But I remebmer you both--justifying your defiance. Oh! How rediculous I feel. Among your words--
pliant,
deft,
triagular,
frisky.
Oh! I'm shivering Silvia.
I'm still shivering.
You spoke do.
Do---slip into the sweet depths of the deep drowning diaphanous depths of the water...
to join you...
it was there, the water that never let the blood flow...I was too stupid
it was that, simpleton, me...
But now I know-- I CAN kill myself----
But now I'm too old
But still so young,
so young
as you to think that these horrid realizations are enough to make me wish upon death
I won't do it, sweet sisters of breath and words and life.
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Reviews of "Sylvia Plath!"
Reviewed by Mei Liu (Reader)
Reviewed on October 22, 2006
"Ennui," a previously unpublished poem by the late Pulitzer Prize-winning poet Sylvia Plath, will appear November 1, 2006 in Blackbird: an online journal of literature and the arts (www.blackbird.vcu.edu). Journey, a published poet and recent winner of the Wabash Prize from Sycamore Review, is the author of a forthcoming scholarly article on "Ennui."
Mei Liu (Intern, Blackbird: an online journal of literature and the arts)
Sexton & Plath were remarkable poets. Their poems and bios certainly left a mark on me, almost inviting me to join them. Like you, I refused and kept on living, at least trying to live. Excellent piece.
JC xoxoxo
Reviewed by T. Emilie Dybevik (Reader)
Reviewed on October 12, 2003
This awed me! I love Anne Sexton and Sylvia Plath! Fine poets. I agree in every way--they were too young. Your images and longing are very exquisite. This is a very fine piece of work. Was a pleasure to read you.
Thank You,
Teresa Emilie
Reviewed by Andi Chrisman (Reader)
Reviewed on October 12, 2003
powerful, the references to Plath and Sexton are like none I've seen before...very very powerful
Early Works is an exhaustive compilation of the first decade of the poems and stories of Z.B.McClure. Included are family photos, rare personal photos, photos of 1st draft manuscripts of many of his early poems. Also some biography and memoir materia
Mei Liu (Intern, Blackbird: an online journal of literature and the arts)
~Nikki~
JC xoxoxo
Thank You,
Teresa Emilie