I didn't hear the door
Slamming shut so softly
As you run from this lie, from this,
Just another part of our future
Stolen to give you a few giddy moments
As you purchase your happiness
Trading your family for each piece
The shame of it, these years
Of lies, of failure, of misery
Weighed too much and you
Couldn't be bothered to quit adding
Each new dark deed to the balance
Until stoop shouldered and shaking
You could no longer face us
So in the end we paid twice
Once with our money, our security
And twice with our family's future
I can't decide if I am sadder
About this decade of hurts
The valley of thorny selfish pricks
The pools of dark hopelessness
That now live in our little ones eyes
The fact that I stayed by your side
To let you disappoint us again or again
Or the fact that you are making sure
That the day will not come
When you repay what you have taken
Giving happiness when once you gave
Nothing at all
So what remains are these deep gulches
Where you dug out the most fertile
Parts of me, that topsoil of richness
That still knew how to grow flowers
Stealing from those who loved you
The greatest things we had to take
Our hope, our trust, and our love
Making two girls tired, old, and bitter