Been trying to say goodbye to you….

Goodbye to all the lies, shallow words, confusion and pain that you represented.

Been trying for a long time, through the tears, sleepless nights and anger

But all I have achieved is more of the same.

How do I say goodbye to something that I don’t want to let go of, yes… you heard me…I don’t want to let go of you because I would have to forgive me first.

Forgive me for not allowing God to guide me especially when I didn’t know what to do. Instead, I allowed my hungry and lonely heart to choose my path. I did not understand the laws of the universe and what I needed, to guide me safely through this life, through the unknown. I ignored my inner voice and discarded my spiritual compass.

Now, I have to forgive myself and I have to forgive you, so I can begin to

BREATHE....

I feel suffocated. Smothered by the past, by my decisions, my failures; failure to understand that what I need to sustain me, is within me,

But it is time to clear the air, to understand the past and all that you represented and thank you so that I can forgive myself and forgive you,

I BREATHE…….

Goodbye to you and thank you for allowing me to see what I was and who I am now.