...meh...

i wait silently at this bus stop
crying in the rain
the only noise around me
is the water crashing to the ground
i am curled around myself
holding my head in a strangers hands
i dont feel that these limbs
this body belongs to me
i cannot tell anymore
if the world around me is cold
i am frozen inside and i dont know
how to defrost myself
i want to burn from the inside
i want a fever to take my body
erase all of what is left of you
i want to burn down that tree
i want to tear that place apart
but i know, that when you arrive here
you will take me in your arms
and i will forgive
i will stay frozen from the inside out
and i will forget the feeling
of wanting you gone