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SEXCRETS TO KEEP, and i don't know if i'm finally done yet or not........being ALIVE 
AND DWAD CATS


EVODEMCE////SRO< CRIME CAN BE  DONE>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>SO  EASILY>> BRAIN IS 
RETURING, DAN THE DAMAGE TBE DONT>
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SOMETHING is: THAT NO ONE SEEMS TO BE 'TELLING' me that my EEGS' an  
whatever-$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$----grams, are just  OK

DID I FINALLY FIND THAT LOVABLE BASTARD, OR IS THERE A GREATER,  BIGGER,
LARGER GOS, ADELPH ADELPH OF Y(U

got me through this
NIGHT.....KNIGHT..........GUARDIANS...................ANGELS>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

AND DEVILS AND DEMONS TO KEEP, TOO S

ROCK AWAY sweet baby  james!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


.......bigger and better and bolder new universes, constantly re-creating to get it right, get it straight, UNDO the DAMAGE lllll  FIND AN IMAGINATION....I think I'm getting to His thoughts.......he might have made US  in his own image....  The MEEK.....WHY?????????????????  BECAUSE  THEY'RE ALWAYS PATIENT AND WAITING, KEEPING THEIR SHYNESS AND  INHIBTIONS QUIIET, SEALED, OR DEAD....POWER OVER YOUR OWN BRAIN....dead  neurons, good proliferating white matter,  NO CANCER.... ....DENTIST PUT ME INTO SHOCK  OVER HOW GREAT MY TEETH ARE, AND HOW BAD MY GUMS ARE GETTING... "ORAL" CANCER  WAS WHAT KILLED FREUD, BUT NOT UNTIL AGE 90, SO IF ENGAGING YOU INSTEAD OF  WORRY*ING   HERCLES, MYTHS...SYMBOSLS..... REGRESSED MEMORIES AND  PHOTOS, MIRRORS RETURNING, IMAGES, TRUE VISIONS..............IMAGINATIONS......WELL IT'S NOT ENDING AND SOMETIME I HAVE  TO SLEEP...AND HAVE TOO MUCH TO FIGURE OUT TO DEAL WITH YOU, POLYTHEISM AND ALL THAT CRAP RIGHT NOW....  LEANNE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  IT's NOT ranting  and RAVING, I'm finally BEGINNING to REALLY TRUST in you, and BELIEVE WHAT YOU  TELL ME IS TRUE, UNVAIL EVERY SINGLE PIECE OF THE MASS JIGSAW  PUZZLE TO GET TO THE UNDYING SRUTH....THOUGH THEREs'S NOTHING AT THE  BOTTOM OF THIS, AND MAYBE NOT ONE GOD, BUT A NUMBER OF THEM, AND I DON'T  KNOW HOW MANY OF THEM ARE COMMITTING ALL THESE FCRIMES, BUT  I'M SUSPICIOUS, KNOW MY PARANOIA, IT'S RIGHTOUS, SmASHED UP PHONES  THAT CHUCK KEPT GIBVING ME, TRAYING TO WIN THIS WAR FOR YOU WITHOUT  DYING....  BALANCING...  TURNING INTO POETRY??WHEN I CAN'T RWALLY HELP IT, OR KEEP CONTROL...  LEANNE, WHEN WILL I EVER STOP APOLOGZING FOR MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  FOR MY EXISTENCE IN THIS PLACE, THIS MASSIVE SKINNER-BOX WE LIVE IN, A GOLDEN CAGE, AND don[t'  j   know what I'm doing EVERY TIME, BUT ............. SHOULD BE REPLACED WITH  "AND: AND REPLACING THE WORD "AND" FOR BUTT" WORKS MOST OF THE  TIME>>>  BURNING OUT MY OWN FLAMEWS< FIRE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!CIGARETTES< EVEIL GREED<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<EXCORISM>>>>>SYMBOLS<  ICONS< NO WHAT YOU KEEP GETTING IN MY SPACE JIMMY AND WHY DO YOU  KEEP KISsING MY FEeT< IT BOTTHER S MWE TO BE SO WHORSHOPED, DAMN....... AND  YOU DON{T HAVE TO GROW UP SO FAST: BUT IT'S AC/DC  SOMETIMES, ELECTERIONSm whatever...........MIRRORS, that was greAT when  I just SAT there, staring at my face in the mirror, brushing and combing my  hair, looking at MYSELF, and enjoying it, trying on different HATS, ignored MY  parents yelling SCRWAMING ASOUTING ALL THE FUCKING TIME OF  SDAY>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>AND  IT WOREKED!  AND SWITCHE TO POSITIVE....a?xy a/c a/c, dc leanne: the  problem here COULD POSSIBLY BE THAT I'M 'STRAIGHT,' so they call it GETTING  STRAIGH BEFORE I CAN DO SOMETHING, HERCUJLES, and I GUess that's enough for  now...     Be nice and gay and happy, thank CARL ROGERS, FOR  MY MANIPULATION OF GOD'S SYSTEMS, TELLING ME HIS OPINONS <AND  WORKING!!!!!! AND .........BEING HUMANITARION, SWITCHING THE SWITHC TO THE  POSITVE MODE, INSEAD OT ABSORBING ONLY "NEGATIVE>>>>>>>>>>  A FUCKING SPONGE, I WAS  ONLY 15, but LIED ABOUT MY AGE, SAID I WAS 12 or 13 and everyone  believed me _) HA HA HA......SO THEY FOUND SOME FRENCH DIRECTOR....SO I  SAID I CAN DO IT only IF I DON'T KNOW im being FILMED, and otherwise can't have  my fucking face in it................... psychosamtic, gestalt, and I'll GET  RESTED WHEN SOME KIND OF TIME SOME COMES WHEN I FEEL  READY>>>>>>>>>>>> OK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

COOL OR NOT?????????????????????????????????what3ever,  I really DON'T CARE............",,,,IS LITTLE TIMMY SUPPOsED TO BE A  RETARD BOY.??? AS IF SHE'S SO MAD and really fucking CARSES FOR ALL THE RETARdED  PEOPLE TAKING ALL THE ABUSE....ONLY I"D SAY THE COGNITIVE "REAL" OR RwaOLITED,  REALITIES, ALIVE AND WELL......SO ALL OF YOU JUST FORGET EVERYTHING.


/////////WHICH ONLY RESULTED IN MORE PARANOIA UNTIL YOU JUST DON'T  CARE ANYMORE AND LET IT ALL GO  -----------------   TO  YOU I ASRILL STILL WOULD LIKE TO REmAIN IN OUTER SPACE AND DRIFT  FOR A LONG TIME........  HAD TO JUST LAY SOME EGGS DOWN FIRST...THEN CAME  THE CHICKEN SHIT0 PEO)POE A FRIGGIN BLONDE, A MAN, WHO COULD DRIVE LIKE AN  INTENSWLY SPED UP PAX PAC MAN GAME, and uypou op YOU know all I'm doing is  just trying to GET IR RSIGHT.....  A LITTLE OESPIAL, BUT I'm  RAISING HIM RIVHT........AC/DC POSTIVE carl rogers but he did  good, practiced until he was almost dead at agge 9999999   `1/2  whenever he felt like not PRACTICING ANYMORE......  I'LL SLEEP WHENEVER I WANT TO, AND CREATE AN ANIMAL JUNGFLE MYSELF, ON MY OWN  SEPARATE ISLAND, since PEOPLE ARE STARTING TO BID ON MY SALES NOW.................AND I NEED AN EMPLOYEE< SOMEONE TO HELP  ME!!!!!!!!!  lest I GET FUCKING NEGATIVE FEEdbACK ON EBAY........so what do  I do about THAT????????????  DOES ebay have any kind  of RULE.

AND LEAST I DID IT mY WAY, AND FINALLY KILLED LOTS OF CATS IT'S  SO MUCH FUN, HILARIOUS AND TRAGIC, AND SO MANY WAYS TO KILL ANIMALS AND MAYBE,  maybe ACCiDENTALLY COMMIT GENOCIDE OF THE WHOLE HUMAN RACE, iF YOU  CAN......

WILL THISE LEINES EVERY BE FINISHED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   yes....  PACING, shifting feet, shifting weight, walking UP the stairs,  walking DOWN the stariusk all the time, PACING, PACING PACING AND TRYING TO  JUPSPT GET PRORITIZED (AND YES, BLONdES DO HAVE MORE FUN, and HE OPERATED THAT  STICK0SHIFT LI*KE A PAC0MAN ON SPEED....SHIFTING GEERS SO FAST THROUGH  THE TRAFFIC OF FUCKING WASTED NEW YORK CITY< AND SO MUCH DELIBERATE  LYING,,,,,SOMETIMEs for Good and DIPLOMATIC RweAsons....

NOW WHAT???????????????  JAMES WILL BE HOME BY 7L18   AND JIMMY 0 0 I WO LOVE YOU THIS MUCH:::::::::::ADELPH ADELPH 0- EVERY POSSIBLE  POINT IN SPACE>>>>>>>>>TIME, KEEPING TRACK OF  IT..................PEACE AND NOISE................QUIET< AND LISTEN TO YOUR  OWN silence all the time, too...and is it at all becoming POETIC????  I  HAVE SECRETS TO KEEP, aND SOME MURDERED SKINELESS SKELETONS IN ALL MY CLOSETS  AND ComPARTMETns!   

 ............SHOUTING AT YA' AND YOU STILL DON{T KNOW THE  SECRETS OR ORIGINS, AND IT'LL STUFF KJUST CONTUE< THERE IS NO END to the  UNIVERSE, it 9is ALL CONSTANTLY RE0-CRWATING TO GET IT FUCKIN  RIGH:T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!