Let There Be Light (article) by Regis Auffray on AuthorsDen

[thoughts from ~burning woman~ by Sha'Tara]

"Faith is universal. Our specific methods for understanding it are arbitrary… In the end we are all just searching for truth, that which is greater than ourselves." (from: Angels and Demons, by Dan Brown)

And therein lies our great flaw, our endless fall into the endless one-sided Mobius strip. For in fact "nothing" is all that can ever be greater than ourselves. And of course, nothing is nothing, so it has no degree. Now to explain how I arrive at this conclusion.

Let's argue, going along with countless religions, that "God" in whatever form, or guise, created what we term "everything" from what we term "nothing" and what does that make us? A product of that that creative act. From nothing comes nothing. The creative act came from God, and God, we must assume was already something. God can't be nothing. We may never understand that God thing, but it has some form of existence, of beingness.

If I accept that—and I find no logic in rejecting it; no reason not to accept it; nor do I see any practical way out of such a conclusion since I have the evidence of "what is" constantly in front of me—then my intelligence tells me that what was created came from a pre-existing form of energy, that is, it did come from something. Not "matter" as we know it, but something that gives rise to matter. What, and how? Well, I think we are about to discover what did it and how it was done. Particle physics has the answer, at least in theory. All it takes is for certain particles, or bundles of energy to smash into each other at high velocities and from the "bang" of their collisions comes matter and anti-matter, or so I understand. A "big bang" created matter. What appeared to have no beingness suddenly appeared, but it is still all energy, only in a different format.

What is, then, is all part and parcel of that pre-existing energy; it is the same energy only dressed in various fashions to model worlds or universes so that our kind of life has a theatre on which to perform and see itself in action.

Let me repeat this: God did not create something from nothing. God (or pure intelligence and pure energy) touched a part of itself to another part and the result was… still God but in a different format.

Sometimes, especially as I dream my constant psychedelic life-affirming dreams, I can feel an unbridgeable gap between the topsy-turvy images and events playing themselves out in my mind and the other reality I express, for example, right now as I write these words. The reality of the dreams mimics this life, but in that reality the ponderous and limited process of earth life is too boring to repeat verbatim. Details are added and "real" events are spliced together, some spanning decades of earth-matter life. Sounds and colours also blend and shift to create new moods in the dream landscape, moving back and forth across a vast continuum of time. For I find that in dreams time has little or no meaning and space is amazingly elastic. When I awake from these travels beyond space/time they quickly "fold" into a closed file and do not touch the life of matter. That is as it must be because the stuff of dreams is the anti-matter to the stuff of my physical life.

Hence the unbridgeable gap. These two realities cannot come together without causing the annihilation of what I've come to know as a "me" entity. What I have come to realize though, is that the unbridgeable gap is the real me. I am neither the anti-matter of my incredible dream life, nor the matter of my brain-body. Between those two, forever proclaiming "let there be light" resides the I Am. My mind. My inextinguishable spark of divinity.

Therefore I must conclude that only "nothing" could ever be greater than I. For I came from God; a particle of energy from the Source that anchored itself in a place out of reach of annihilation. Another way of putting it, were I to "prove" the existence of God is, "I exist, therefore God exists."

To keep this "argument" from plunging into idiocy, one must learn a trick: to break out of religion's folly which insists on separating "what is" from God, then creates twisted theologies that purportedly "redeem" the "what is" or created order that it may return to God. Of my own desire and power must I reunite my myriad "selves" to myself.

The second trick one must learn is this: to accept the fact that there are many aspects of myself I will never agree with, whose acts I shall never condone; to realize that some parts require severe discipline and re-shaping and that such will impact heavily on myself for I must feel what all of them feel; I must experience their own reality somehow. That is the problem of empathy. Still, I cannot simply declare that they are no longer a part of me.

Speaking as a would-be Avatar, I know that I will never succeed in changing anything that I do not first accept as being a legitimate part of myself for all we can ever know of permanent or real change is what we change within ourselves. Knowing this, I realize that the Avatar or change agent must live in a state of constant humility in order to wield authority over any part of creation. In fact, the only legitimate authority ever expressed can only come from humility. What comes from force; from pride and greed is always false and will always fail, for it brings only darkness.

Let there be light!