Living with Lupus has gotten me to a point in my life that I am learning to enjoy life and I am seeing that there is more to life then what I see. This is the blessing.
Life is more than the outside, life is what we are in the inside and what we stand for what we're here for. Our bodies are just a shell, what lives forever is our being our soul.
I have come to believe that this experience I am having with the Wolf Lupus, is to bring me closer to the Spirit within myself.
I am just sharing what is coming out of me at the moment I have a real need to share this because I know the pain that we as Lupies deal with and I am now seeing the joy we can experiance.
When I step back and really take a look at my life I see who I really am. I feel joy and I am seeing the blessings I am receiving. I don't feel this way 24 hours a day but that is my aim.
I have no excuses any more even though I am limited in certain things in life because of Lupus I am still able to experience life to the fullest. I am just learning to do it in a different way. I may be limited in the way I do things, meaning I have to do certain activities slower than I used to or I have to find other ways to do certain things.
I pray that we all experiance the joy in life. We all have blessings and we all can feel joy no matter what our experience is in life we can make it a positive one.
Because of the Spirit within, I don't feel alone and I feel that I am worthy of having a good life.
I have been in fear of the disease of Lupus. I do not have that fear any more.
I am not Lupus, I am not the disease that is what I am finding out from this journey called life. I am a child of God.
Today I believe that and feel it.
Thanks for letting me express my feelings.
Update since 2004 when I was diagnosed with Lupus I was in remission for two years from 2010 until 2012. Lupus has been back and active and once again my life has changed I am home bound again and having to deal with it the best I can. Being on line has been a gift God has brought many people into my life who I am thankful for.
June 2006 Denise Contreras.